RUDIMENTS, pt. 131
Making Cars
I walked the streets of New York
City as of part of a swarm. In the
NYC of today, actually, I seldom
see the sorts of everyday crowds
I used to see then - sometimes
looking up Fifth Avenue, in the
low 50's or high 40's, the only
thing a person could see was the
mass-swarm of heads, moving
along, a slight sway and an up
and down movement on them. It
oftentimes just looked organic,
like something flowing in a
bloodstream, or a virus or a
bacteria, virulently spreading.
In today's variant of that, a person
at least gets some 'space' around
them although everyone is looking
down and no one watches where
they're going. 'Uptown', as that
area was referred to, was a mystery.
Upper Fifth Avenue, in that area,
(it's not really 'upper' because Fifth
Avenue continues ALL the way
up the east side, well after 110th
street, right up to 143rd). In the
upper 40's, right up though the
50's, Fifth Ave. was expensive
shops, showrooms and anchor-stores
for the large, luxury stores of name,
legend, and wealth - Bergdoff's,
Tiffany, Saks Fifth Avenue, etc.,
etc. The list goes on. A glass of
water at one of their lunch counters
(some actually had them), was like
$9 on a good day. 'After all, think
where you are.' I never got any of
that, and the message was lost
and garbled to me. Whatever fantasy
lives people live with themselves, it
always appeared that Fifth Avenue
was the Main Street for it - and it
still is. The crowds start winding up
a bit before Thanksgiving, and once
the Christmas orgasming begins the
entire place is a mad nuthouse of
gawkers, eyes, arms and hands,
everywhere. Lines. Christmas
gadgetry, lights, displays, and -
almost offensively - the unending
spectacle of low-grade visitors from
Passaic, New Brunswick, Center Reach,
Nyack, or Ronkonkoma barrel in and
make a complete lie of any claim to
exclusivity, wealth, and taste, by their
unending drooling and cheap habits.
The French say ' mauvais gout' (bad
taste), and if you believe that, Stendahl
put it even better : 'Le mauvais gout mene
aux crimes' - (Bad taste leads to crime).
I add 'disenchantment,' and 'artificial
pearls before real swine.'
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Once you untangle the falsity of things
from their actual reality, a lot changes -
Like the whole crock about Fifth Avenue.
Outside of the self-created, prime real
estate and concomitant rents - which
in turn are mostly the reason for the
high prices - the actual aura of the
street is all fake. It's all the same
high-named leather and belt stuff
you can get anywhere, just made in
other places and with name-tags and
branding effects, etc.. The panache
comes from the exclusive wielding
of the idea of prestige, which is really
the product. The trouble is, all these
hordes are let in, with their popcorn
and hamburgers, to destroy the entire
mystique, while consuming it. Really
bad husbandry of the product, I'd say.
It's funny, because if your product is
'prestige', and then you begin peddling
that to lunkheads, you end up destroying
what you're trying to sell - like Groucho
Marx not wishing to be a member of any
club that would have him.
what you're trying to sell - like Groucho
Marx not wishing to be a member of any
club that would have him.
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Mostly, I just did what I wanted
to do, without any of the whichevers
and whatevers that usually go with it.
It was a goldmine, my streets, places,
the Studio School, and all the other
live resources that NYCity offered
me, freely. Back then you were able
to stroll in anywhere and partake.
No one scanned you or your bag,
no one asked for ID, and played
'20 questions' with you. I used to
just stroll in wherever I liked, and
that included schools and stuff, like
NYU, quite nearby, and way uptown,
Columbia too. There was so much
turmoil anyway that everything was
topsy--turvy. I often just sat in, and
wherever I pleased. I used to think
of myself as a 'craft' atop some
grand sea, and anywhere I chose
to pull in was my 'landing party'.
The best of it was the NY Public
Library, in the most complete, old
sense of magnificent, a true
transcendental resource.
transcendental resource.
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I did a lot of studying, and of two
subjects in particular that always
intrigued me : the history of religion,
as it were, and belief; and 'clasical'
literature. I paced my own little
curriculum, went about all this in
my own ways, and it was always
good enough for me. There were
times when I just walked out
stunned. (One time, in the 80's,
funny as it was, there was miserable
Dylan album attempt that came out,
entitled, 'Knocked Out, Loaded.'
And I immediately understood that,
and knew exactly what he was trying
to say with that phrase, using my own
personal, past references of this time
for him. It was exactly how I felt:
Knocked out. Loaded). I would be
stunned. (One time, in the 80's,
funny as it was, there was miserable
Dylan album attempt that came out,
entitled, 'Knocked Out, Loaded.'
And I immediately understood that,
and knew exactly what he was trying
to say with that phrase, using my own
personal, past references of this time
for him. It was exactly how I felt:
Knocked out. Loaded). I would be
thinking through what I'd just been
working on, keeping little notebooks,
etc. None of it, ever, was the world
that had been explained to me.
Nowhere were the reference points
the same. I'd try and figure out what
was going on, and - really - the
only sensible thing I'd ever come up
with was that places like Avenel, say,
for me, and a million other little
quirky pieces of real estate out of
which people had come, had escaped,
so to speak, to New York City, were
nothing more than locked-door
insane asylums where people bought
into and propagated all those lies.
All across America, that's what it
was. The American Dream image
thing was a complete, consumerist
lie. Again I think back to Avenel
and to the manner by which it,
the attempt, was made to raise me.
Fundamental to that was obedience,
school, home and church being the
primary three. They each assumed,
without saying so, a unified and
coherent viewpoint over life. The
whole sleepy place, it seemed,
depended on one quietude of a
comforting and secure belief in
'God.' The one God explained and
proffered there in the accepted
manner, through the assortment of
small churches and establishments
around. Comfortable, passive, and
able to be explained away as charitable
and helpful to others. Supposedly.
Yet, in early history, the world had
been a turmoil; local places, established,
under the tutelage of local spirit Gods,
urges and influences. Nothing was ever
settled or secure. The 'Narrative' had
not yet been put together to be spread
and universalized. All religion was
local. Same Gods, in different places,
perhaps the idea of anyway, but no
communication between places existed.
Rites and beliefs, it appeared sprang up
spontaneously and locally, and in some
cases along the routes of trade and
migration. From one place to another,
curiously similar practices arose. Everyone
had a 'sky' God(s), sometimes with similar
names place to place, slight variations.
As if, travelling through Italy, one
place had salami, another 'salametti,
with still another calling it 'salmetto.'
There were grand overlaps of creation
myths, each postulating something,
quite often just a different version of
a local superiority. It all 'existed'
while it was being built (a strange
concurrence with a 'God' idea too),
who existed both while and outside
of its time of constructing. Sky Gods
were always 'from the sky.' So was
the spacecraft visitor guy of Moses,
that burning but not burning, radiation-
spewing, bush of a craft which so
scarred him and from which others
were kept away. Ezekial, Enoch, all
those guys. This was all real stuff, and
to trace the development and local
variants of it all was to be able to see
the growth of Mankind. Why, I couldn't
figure out, did church and Bible people
only believe the church and bible when it
it went their way and was convenient. The
evidence was overwhelming that this was
all alien visitation sky-stuff, a force far
superior to us, due to return, and who
oftentimes, when their crafts were near,
came down to visit and re-visit, to advance
mankind by teaching agriculture, and
metallurgy (those big, unexplained leaps
in our sequences that scientist just continue
to call 'unexplainable'). Those spacecraft,
in our time frame, take huge, 6,000 year
arcs through the Heavens. My children,
they'll be back. They want to see
that swarm again.
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