for anything, that I ignored. I'm a bastard like that
sometimes. I look like shit and I feel like wurst.
I was reading Mark on the train. Mark 8 or 13, or
something. It's just the most direct gospel, but it's
so fucked up and difficult to read : there's this one
part, all jammed together, three or four stories
crossing into one another : a madman on an island,
'the Geresene Demoniac' across the water. The cure
of this man is as follows : Jesus goes to the other side
of the lake, alone; none can follow him, to the
Gentile side, where the pigs are kept. The demoniac,
presumably Gentile, is possessed by an unclean Spirit,
named Legion who, as is the custom of demons in
Mark, immediately recognizes Jesus as the son of God.
Mark emphasises the enormous strength of this madman;
he haunts tombs, no chains can be found to hold him.
Day and night among the tombs and on the mountains
he was always crying out and bruising himself with
stones. When Legion is expelled by Jesus (even the
single word 'Legion' , which the devils possessing the
demon gave as their name, is singular but collective
here - 'My name is Legion, for we are many') and
entered into the herd of swine, which herd promptly,
en masse, destroys itself. The cure prompts terror
among the other Gerasenes on that side of the lake,
who implore Jesus to go away. He does so, leaving the
madman cured and docile, clothed and in his right mind.
He tells the man to remain there, and proclaim his cure. - Then there this woman who's been bleeding for twelve years, seeking a cure in the crowd around Jesus back on the land. She secretly touches his garment, Jesus exclaims 'who touched my garment!' and the power goes out of him him. She is cured. Unlike to the madman, He tells her to be quiet and tell no one. - Then the important Jew comes forth and tell Jesus his daughter is dead ('the daughter of Jairus is dead'). He pushes through the crowd, leaving it, and takes the parents with Him to the dead girl's side, saying 'she is not dead; she is merely sleeping.' They laugh at him, with disdain. Nonetheless she arises, and all are amazed, after He's taken her hand and said an Aramaic incantation over her. He tells her to rise, and she does. He commands the parents to silence and tells them to get her something to eat, 'she is hungry'. Jairus was a ruler of the synagogue. The name Jairus means 'the awakener'. - Weirdly, none of this is anything new; forerunners of these people, and foreshadows and echoes of these and other tales can all be found in the Old Testament. Jairus is mentioned in Esther. It's all very dark and mysterious. I read on, and reel. It's all so deep as to hurt. Why am I back in this world?
You can surmise all that I am from what it is you read about me herein - experiences and outlooks philosophies and viewpoints too. "For God's sake ! will SOMEONE please read this stuff - it's very important."