RUDIMENTS, pt. 134
Making Cars
I always figured that a person
was going to be wounded by life
along the way, but it was important
that the wounds weren't self-inflicted.
Most are, and it just gets deeper. A
person ends up walking through the
debris, slogging through the aftermath.
That doesn't leave room for any point
of fresh departure or even of restart.
When I was a kid, I'd never faced much
of the idea of 'divorce' - nor do I know,
though I guess it was, if all that was
always going on. None of my friends,
that I knew of, had parents who were
feuding or breaking up or separated.
It was just a bunch of 'happy' families;
a few wise-guy, drinker types, but
everyone was still at home. Idyllic.
From my perspective anyway. What
I'm saying is that it appeared that no
in was in the throes of having to grow
up or live the the furies and angers of
feuding parents or any of that. The first
person, a kid-friend of mine, that went
through that was a friend a few doors
down the street - 5 brothers. 'Dad'
worked at Merck, and side-jobbed
too as the booze clerk at the Two Guys
Liquor Store in Hopelawn. One day,
after years of being tormented by 5
teen boys - cars and hot rods all
over the back yard, noise, weird
hours, all of that, she (Mom) took
the youngest boy, about 8 or 9, and
they just walked out, took off,
abandoned the whole scene, and
ran off to California. My friend
Larry (dead now, the next to the
youngest), said there was no contact
after that for thirty years. And then
one day there was. That simple. I
always wondered, at that point, who
was living down what mistake? Was
there even, in those terms, a mistake
at all. The weird things is, between
Mom and Dad initiating this whole
thing, the lives of 5 boys came to
be - came to be determined and
worked out. Such a world as we
have to deal with is pretty much
all we get : Mom, dad, boys, cars,
the house, the activities and hobbies
all notwithstanding.
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It was odd too, along Inman Avenue,
how there seemed to be a constant
presence, in 1957 'American' terms
of 'California' looming. Not to make
too much of it, I should point out
nevertheless that the sorts of families
we had on that street - mostly regular,
plodding groups - also somehow held
a few, what I'll call here, 'sunshines.'
People (and families) who didn't quite
make that initial grade of east-coast
small-step people - those willing for
the darkness and the routine. In the
initial years of my being there,
(Summer '54), there were a few
families who, after maybe a year
and a half or two, uprooted themselves
again. To California. At that time
California was all promise, light and
happiness, and was being touted as the
place where Americans go to 'finish'
that quest again for Eden. A perfect
zone of climate and activity, the
sinewy, shades-drawn beauty and
allure of loves and lusts, new
beginnings and possibilities, and
with nary a God or a serpent walking
the garden rows seeking you out.
The Bertinis left - they lived 3 or
4 houses over from me, and had
some large 1957'ish station wagon,
packed and loaded to the gills with
goods and belongings - like some
consumerist-nation Okies setting off -
and early one Saturday, after some
Friday night send-off party stuff,
the Bertinis were happily waved off
as they drove away, up Inman Ave.
to Route One, entering their new
way of passage across the nation
to seek and find their new Eden.
California. A little later in time,
the Consortis left. Then the family,
down the end of the street, by the
school, a kid named Emil, and his
family left, in much the same way,
though quieter. And then, Larry's
Mom, in the manner I described,
left too. All California-bound.
The churning mix, the popcorn-
popper of American space, was,
it seemed, always popping things
around and over. Funny part was,
in a few years, the Bertinis were
back, into some other home
somewhere, but back. Eventually
some remnant of the Consorti's too
returned, where the oldest son, a
year or two older than me, later died
on the job, here, from some sort of
industrial poison or something.
Life has fates, I guess, and each
fate is ready, and directed, for its
recipient, like some silent,
Japanese Noh theater play.
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The even funnier thing was how
this newly built street, this stringy
expanse of homes, was in itself
supposed to have been that Eden,
that new break, that paradise, for
all of those people coming here
from Bayonne, Jersey City,
Elizabeth and even Brooklyn
and Queens. At this time, much
of this was the southernmost
expanse of most new development
in these parts. After this area,
everything around just started
dwindling to sandy patches of
bay, and the beginnings, eventually,
of the Jersey shore - bungalows,
surf huts, small villages like
waterside encampments. The
massive building and zone-over
hadn't yet started, nor was most
of it even yet fully planned and
thought of. Roadside amenities,
too, were not yet established. Who'd
ever heard, for goodness sake, of
Hardee's and Seven-Eleven.
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My father was always a sand and
beach buff - fishing, boating,
driving to the shore. That mostly
consumed his out-of-home weekends,
when he wasn't at home anyway,
building things or working on the
house (sheds, extensions, doing the
open attic over into living spaces). Of
open attic over into living spaces). Of
course, in those early days, the 'number 1
son' (me) had to accompany this Robinson
Crusoe (mixed reference there, I know
it's Charlie Chan), on all this beach-
Crusoe (mixed reference there, I know
it's Charlie Chan), on all this beach-
mongering stuff, even though I
mostly, over time, hated it once it
became routine. I did at first enjoy
heartily the travel and seeing things;
my father's unending supply of cheap
station-wagons, through the 1950's,
took us on all sorts of jaunts. Just my
father and me - Jersey shore towns
and hamlets, renting boats for little
fishing-trips. It had to be salt-water,
for him nothing else existed. Forget
mountains and mountain lakes and
streams. For sissies. Fresh water was
fake water, and fisherman sloshing in
the streams with their rubber leggings
and fly-fishing materiel might as well
have just been gay. Real men did 'salt
water.' The ocean was where they
were tested and proved. He had a
small 8 or 1o hp boat motor we'd
hang on the back of most anything
he could rent for the day. Which
mostly meant rowboats, a mere
twitch on the surface of the ocean's
twenty-foot swells. Too many times
we were dragged back by the Coast
Guard with a warning and a scolding,
'pitiful fools,' for being way too far
out and past endurance for the likes
of a stupid motorized rowboat. To
my young mind, 'How was your day?'
could have been answered, some days,
with 'lousy'. Or better yet, a simple,
'Lost at sea.' I guess I did it for Dad.
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Somewhere along the way down,
Monmouth Beach, Hazlet, or something,
if you made a left and went straight out
to the dunes and the water, there was a
place called 'Spy House,' an old colonial
seafront home, facing the bay, isolated
and discreetly tucked in, to which
everything from, pirates and privateers,
Revolutionary War sailors and soldiers,
escapees, criminals, bootleggers, and ghosts,
had eventually sought refuge. The tales
and the lore abounded, the supposed
sightings and evidences, the broken
posts and hang-man's nooses, were
everywhere. (It's still there now, this
current-day blowhard of a place, ruined
and neutered, with county history people
there to spin their lurid tales for you,
and go home. Taking your dollars too,
if you give them. Their tales are mostly
made-up, and are about as authentic
as a fake leg. We'd stop there often
enough - there was some very eerie,
haunting old lady who lived in the place.
as real as could be, and had probably
not been out since 1776. Her recountings
of things made your hair stand on end.
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Out past, beyond that, was the meat
of my father's journeys past the point.
There was a real, bona-fide, 'Monmouth
Fisherman's Cooperative'. Exact name now
forgotten. Maybe 'Raritan Bay' instead of
Monmouth. These were 4am fishermen, who'd
be out in their trawlers and fishing boats in
the dark, and back to shore by 8 or 9, tending
their catches in any of the five or six huge-size
old buildings that housed their fish trays
and sales counters and cleaning sinks.
They'd combine their catches (it was, after
all, a 'cooperative'), and price and sell their
catches, as well as ice-pack and truck them to
restaurants and fish-stores and the like.
My father reveled in all this activity, as, I
admit, did I. Grappling hooks, huge knives
and cleavers, water baths, dead and cut-up
fish everywhere, fish-blood and innards.
Men in oozing aprons, with their tools, and
cigarettes too, dangling. Tracks idling,
men yelling. Water sprays, pooled run-off and
fouled debris. The boats these guys used were
their own - wooden craft and almost
home-made things afloat, with posts and
extenders, hooks and pulleys everywhere.
A regular Popeye-ville. Perfect. It too is still
there, though a pale ghost of its former self.
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