Wednesday, November 30, 2022

15,808. HALF EMPTY-HEADED IDAHO

HALF EMPTY-HEADED IDAHO
It's a choice, it's a choice, America.
The garbage men go out on strike
or the railroad men go out on strike,
Either way, it doesn't matter to a rover.
No garbage left behind, and no rail
tracks to go over. Tramp, tramp, 
tramp, the bums are marching.
-
Just last week was Thanksgiving
Day, and I took a 150-mile trip just
to say : Hi, how are you, well I guess
I'm feeling fine. No it's all forgotten
already and I feel like I never left 
for anything at all.
-
The last word about anything is never
the really last word  -  everyone's got
something to add. It's how sisters aid
brothers and friends aid their lovers.
The hovering ghost of that last-week's
turkey never meant to be that at all.
Nothing wants to be powerless like
that, especially in half-empty headed
Idaho!

15,807. ALL HIGH TO ALHAMBRA

ALL HIGH TO ALHAMBRA
The fat guy had a story, and
it was his to tell. He said how 
he and his friend had driven
cross-country in an 8-year old
Mercury Matador, and made it
all the way but had to fly back 
because the car was dead. Not
in Sausalito, like they'd hoped, 
nor Alhambra either, way down
south, but in a place called Vallejo
by Half Moon Bay. He thought
he remembered, and that's all
he'd say. I couldn't figure the 
difference, for if you look at a
map that like saying you meant
to get to Georgia but ended up
in New York City. Well, anyway,
that's probably happened a lot, 
and everyone makes a wrong
turn here and there.

15,806. YOU CAN'T WRITE LETTERS

YOU CAN'T WRITE LETTERS
So it is said : You can't write
letters just to populate people.
Nations. Places where people
live. The dead letter office is at
the end of that dead-end street.
-
Plenipotentiary Gods await you,
while licking their pre-formed 
stamps by thought. It's simple
to be both omnipotent  and
omnipresent.
-
Along the cobblestone roadway,
the old trolly tracks are sunken
in and, now, long forgotten too.
None cares about the odor of
old rooms, nor the trailings of
old histories : How the rails once
ruled the land, supplanting even
the inland water travel of barge
and boat that once had gone 
before. That land is freer now
that it is all paved.
-
Let us not forget, tomorrow
was of another age.

15,805. RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,333

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,333 
(scatterbrain gets no reprieve)
Now here's some fun. I'm probably
at the end of my life. I spent the last
2 days preparing for hospital days.
It was almost as much fun as putting
a needle into my knee. A doctor talks
about my heart like it was putty.
-
Back and forth, like I never imagined.
There are places allover places : Pittstown
to Hughestown. Avoca to Jermyn. Scranton
to any used car lot you desire. Why should
I whine? The nurse was a real beauty too,
handling my junk like it wasn't mine.
-
We ended up in a rude motel. It began
life as an Econo-Lodge, but that was
long ago. Now it's an 86 bucks a night
smelly fleabag called the Maharaj Palace.
Oh sure : closed up restaurant section,
with broken atrium glass. The lobby was
 a dive, the rooms were crummy, and the
walls were cracked. (When I say 'we' I
don't me the nurse and me). 
-
Two cars in the parking lot  -  ours and
one other person's, until about 5:30, when
the workday ended. Then there were
about 30; I figured it was workers or
construction guys sent to Scranton for
a job and put up at a cheap hotel by
their employers. 'Hey Frankie, wanna
go to Scranton for 8 weeks, all expenses
paid?' After the workday was over, the
place got more active. But no parking
lot hookers ever showed up. Probably
you have to ask.
-
Inside, my wife was watching 'Uncle Buck',
the movie  -  some John Candy Christmas
bullshit spectacular. Down in the lobby,
somehow Leonard Skynyrd was on the
jukebox, singing 'I Know a Little' - what
it was doing there I never knew.  The
hallway was noisy, and my lamp wouldn't
work so I had to switch bulbs.
-
The doctor told me two version of what
could happen. Both had a 4% chance of
failure. I'm snakebit, like I told a friend,
and I can sense what's coming my way.
16 degrees Celsius, he says, in one version
is what they have to cool my body down
to so as to extricate my heart and put
me running to a heart and lung machine.
The other way is without doing that, which
is the way he wants  -  they stop my heart
for a bit and hook me over. I said, 'Do
they always restart?' He laughed, and
said, 'Yes. After 73 years it will probably
welcome a little rest anyway.' Joy to the
world; the Lord has come, I say!
-
Outside of all that, I'm numb as can be:
frozen in fear like an ice-pop in a heat
wave down at the park. Words can feel
me know, because it probably won't 
matter anymore. I'll be the loneliest
guy on the slab? Damn I'm scared.
-
Maybe they'll call me the Breeze too,
after all this. I remember, being a kid,
when people got to the age I'm already 
at, they were Mostly already dead. Will
anyone remember me? Damn, I want
to live.
-
I saw that '59 El Camino I mentioned
yesterday, and went out again, in the
afternoon today, trying to find where
I'd seen it. No luck. Kane Street or
Davis Street. Or along Rt. 11, through
Avoca. I know it's there. If I get a third
chance at this life (Oh thank you Jesus!),
 I'll send that life finding that damn car again.

Tuesday, November 29, 2022

15,804. FAST IN THE THICKET

FAST IN THE THICKET
Only now I wish, do I, that there
was a serum to take  -  as when I
was a kid and the crooks were
always being given 'Truth Serum'
by the Feds, to talk. My tongue has
been tattered many years back: now
tired of its misappropriation, it only
demands that I drink and riot. Not
me, these days, not me.
-
I used to do my share : had I a dollar
for every beer I pissed away, I'd be
rich now as MacDonald's. The
motorcycle fairies repaid all my
wishes, with chains and knuckles,
and ball-peen hammers too. I never
said a word.
-
Peeled tongue and silent matter,
fast in the thicket, I stayed alive.

15,803. A NOTION OF WHAT WILL COME

 A NOTION OF WHAT WILL COME
Wind warnings are out tonight. I guess
what will be will be. There's no sense
in bucking fate or bucking trends, while
the world has its own ideas of things.
-
Tying a string around my finger, in case
I forget, though I've already forgotten
what I put it there for. If that's a logic,
then I'm a true logician and 'A' will
always follow 'B'.
-
For not, I can only wait. I steer towards
nothing, and the North Star is gone.

15,802. RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,332

 RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,332
(glory be to glory that was)
Not wishing to misconstrue,
the particulars of Elmira made
it, in effect, a hothouse of a
decaying old industrial city;
which, in turn, made it unique 
and singular too. You could
just hear things dying off as
you walked along. The two
periods  -  pre-flood and
post-flood, also, became as
different as night and day; as
if, pre-flood, plastic and tacky
had not yet been invented and,
post-flood, it had taken over.
Contractors and re-builders
swarmed the place, each 
outdoing the other in the
surpassing any semblance of
the old by dousing it in the
new, which in the mid-1970's,
mostly meant crap and junk.
Picture a city of Ford Pintos,
or Chevy Vegas, for equivalence.
Plastic. Cheap lumber. Bad
siding and colors. Many of the
finest and oldest little shop
and storefronts became sheeted
in bad glass, inoperative windows,
and new, hideous signage. Any
'old America' charm was lost.
I'd imagine it wasn't the first
terrible flood to hit the place,
but I don't know what they did
the other times either. Maybe
1946, as I recall, had some
sort of lesser flood. A few of
the big 'anchor' type stores
just upped and left. There was
a crappy but flourishing 'mall'
a few miles out, on the way to
Corning, and I think some just
moved there.
-
Corning was a whole different
place; income levels were higher,
corporate jobs and positions, the
legions of glassblowers and glass
museum people gave the town a
different feel. Like a corporate 
campus more than anything else;
not so much a 'town' or a 'place.'
Housing was different; modern and
suburbanized. The mall I already
mentioned, and there wasn't much
of a downtown. But the people all
seemed lifeless; drained, dead. There
was no joy or happiness there, just
stiving. Poor folk are usually, at
least, happy  -  in their own way.
Ironic humor. Dirty jokes. Beer
and babes. None of that in Corning.
-
Every place out there had its story:
another local town called 'Horseheads'
made claim to its name with a story
that the first settlers there came across
a horse graveyard, kept by local Injuns,
and all they saw was a field of, yep,
horse heads. Ok, sure. And there's no
joy in Corning because glassblowing
replaced any other kind of blowing.
Another one was Cortland; home of
the famed Cortland apple.
-
Of course, buying a town of my own
was never an option, so I usually kept
quiet when the people where I worked,
at break time or at lunch, would sit
around yapping or gawking about all
the wonderful new things happening
'in town.' The place had pretty much
been taken over by the Army Corps
of Engineers  -  which was channeling
and chopping all that it could to prevent
'flooding' (destroying much of the
storybook views of the river and its 
small island; trees, undergrowth, etc.);
pouring these horrid, concrete, sidings
all along the riverbanks and then calling
them riverside parks  - with grass and
fountains but barren as all get out. I
swear I once heard Mark Twain and
Huck Finn puking in the bushes after
seeing this. Everyone did seem to love
their 'new' Elmira. Architectural smears
and 'urban renewal' notwithstanding.
They somehow were still able to talk
of 'Elmira' as their quaint, little riverside
burg. No one any longer had a foot in
reality. It was all dream and imagination.
Of course, one of the next things done
was for the three bridges, needing to be
rebuilt (Maple St., Walnut Street, and
Main Street bridges) and that started
almost immediately too  -  for a full
year, bright lights and all-night
pile-driving and construction crews,
loudly laboring away (we, fortunately,
were not bothered by noise or lights
where we lived). I don' know how
people put up with it; it just went on 
and on. And new billboards were up,
just as quickly  -  stupid crap, Burt
Reynolds and Sally Fields in some
racecar or Smokey and the Bandit
movie, right off the bat. Entertaining
the idiot masses was as important, I
guessed, as rebuilding. I didn't know
why the Dukes of Hazzard couldn't
just jump the river in their General
Lee car instead of re-doing these 
bridges; it all would have seemed 
just as right.
-
So, the next destructive thing was
that some idiot devised a new roadway,
four-lane, express. A new route, right
through the middle of town, allowing
'travelers to bypass Elmira, without
even stopping in to say 'hi.' Every
passing car meant, for small-business
owners, probably 20 bucks they'd
never see, as people just never 
stopped. Brilliant idea! Then they 
called it the Samuel Clemens/ Mark 
Twain Expressway, commonly referred
to now as the Clemens. A few exits,
and many small businesses removed,
along with any homes which may have
been in the way. Making matters worse,
as these corrupt little towns everywhere
do, they build a Clemens Performing
Arts Center adjacent to the roadway
and near town center, so the rubes 
could come see Christmas Shows, 
moronic concerts, third-rate singers
imitating superstars, and panoramic 
reviews of the town they'd just
destroyed. And, of course, every 
song, dance and playlet referring to 
Mark Twain that they could. The
'Faux Show Playhouse' I called it.
-
Long about the 1880's and past, the
town did once have rail service and
a nice train station. Now there was
nothing left of that except a dingy,
overhead rail line that ran on its own
series of pedestal trestles right through
the center of town, literally  -  30 feet 
above, and direct. Endless slumbers
of lazy freight trains. The train station
was re-purposed into a number of
stores, a Chinese restaurant, and one
or two hippy type bangles and clothing
stores ('Glad Rags' and 'Fat City'). 
Going back now, all that is gone too,
and some company (Hilliard Co) has
taken it all over as a storage yard.
-
Glory be to glory that was.



Monday, November 28, 2022

15,801. CHINA

CHINA
I did a dissertation, and it was
titled 'On Dissertations.' Feeling
I'd covered the subject well, I
felt the mark I got did me a true
disservice. B-. I wanted a number,
not a letter grade.  My opening line 
was 'China is a chain around the 
neck of the world, taking everything 
down with it.' I should have added,
'soon enough.' but I did not. I asked
why I'd only received a B-, and was
told it was due to the lack of footnotes.
I said, 'You miss the point. This was
comedy, and comedy doesn't have
footnotes. In the same way you don't
'explain' a joke.' Nothing worked.
He was a dense as a brick wall.

Sunday, November 27, 2022

15,800. RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,331

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,331
('solitary and reading something)
Rubin was a fine fellow. One
of those years, maybe '74, my
wife  -  who was a big Mr. Rubin
fan too  -  used him for getting
a birthday gift for me. Rubin had
a local friend in the leather business.
To my surprise, that one year she
presented me with a very fine, soft
leather, with straps and a shoulder
strap too, a really grand, briefcase;
old-style, as not much seen these
days. Fine, thick leather, undyed
yet polished on one side, with large 
straps. No buckles or snaps, and a
voluminous inside area, with two
expandable pockets. The thing was
grand. I still have it, and I often
used it on my daily train travel
to and from Princeton  -  usually
getting a comment or two about
'that fine bag.' It very much did
resemble a saddlebag, so I could
see why the comments were valid.   
She probably, back then, paid like
70 bucks, I'd bet. A pretty penny, 
for us. Today it would easily be
$700. In talking with my wife 
about this just now, she can recall 
how, after the washer and dryer 
we'd needed to buy, and after this
briefcase purchase, we had 6 dollars
in the bank.
-
Rubin was old-line, old-school, 
Elmira. There wasn't anything 
'modern' in his make-up. He 
handled his cash register, and
the making of change, in an old
school, and deliberate, manner;
stipulating change by carefully
delineating nickels, dimes, and
quarters. no confusion, no mistake.
His clothes were often bunched
and baggy. In all other respects,
and within the running of his shop,
he was right on the mark. Oftentimes
he'd be the only person in there, and
I'd walk in on him, bunched on a
chair behind the register area, solitary
and reading something. He'd look
up, and the talk would commence.
-
That business strip of Elmira was an
odd mix. There was a place named
'Harold's' at the corner  -  jeans, Army
and Navy stuff, pea jackets, military
knifes and equipment, camping stuff,
warm socks, hiking boots, even tools
and bicycles, as I recall. It was always
there, and came back after the flood
too, as had Rubin's. I could only
imagine the ungodly mess of soggy
magazines, and gear, newspapers
and clothing, that they both lost.
The funny thig about Elmira, and
that flood  -  which remains vivid 
to this day  -  is the way it swept
through (June 24, 1972, I think),
and then lingered only briefly, and
left. The old little city was devastated.
But those things that came back, most
but not all of it, came back in the very
same look and format that they had
had before. The only 'monied' changes
were those of the aforementioned  -
in the previous chapter  -  Chemung
Bank building. They probably got
all the money they ever wanted from
small-business and disaster loans. They
built a rocket-ship like, Jetsonesque
monstrosity, about 8 stories high. it
was completely out of place, and ugly 
besides, in a sort of blown-on tan
pebbles and stone finish that was
basically hideous. I guess when
you're the big lender in town you
can do what you damn well please,
and some cranked-up architect had
probably sold the dolts on his design.
There were two other banks, that I
remember, Marine Midland, and
Elmira Savings and Loan, but they
paled by comparison, and their tastes
in 'architecture' were much tamer.
-
The entire southside of Elmira, meaning
the 'south' bank of the river (lowlands),
and the streets and homes therein, were
devastated. As you'd maybe expect, this
was the poor section of town, where the
poorer people lived. They were helpless,
if not hopeless too. I knew a few people 
there  -  most went to Red Cross stations
and temporary National Guard relief
shelters. They all seemed to get by, but
I don't know how they managed the
money and the re-building. In that same
area, during the flood, there were one
of two low cemetery grounds that the
swirling waters and eddies were able
to do a job on; twisting the ground and
dislodging caskets. There's one of those
1972 Hurricane Agnes flood memorial
booklets that have photos of caskets
floating and swirling along the streets
in the high-flood muds and currents.
That was pretty weird, but not much
was ever spoken about it, later on. A
mark of shame, somehow? Not to be
brought up or discussed?
-
We had to put up for one night in a
Red Cross station. It was pretty much
a miserable site, with wailing babies,
kids all over, and wailing mothers too.
The higher ground, at the college section,
where we lived, was never in any danger;
nor was the college, or its library, etc.
-
Anyway, that old flood really shook
up Elmira, and for a long time too. It
was a good two years before the place
truly got back on its feet  -  Sears, the
MacDonald's, and the rest of downtown;
comprised as it was of small proprietor
shops and stores plenty of churches, two
supermarkets, and the rest. But, when it
did come back, it came back nicely, or
nice enough anyway.

15,799. YOU STILL LIVING WTH NAOMI?

YOU STILL LIVING WTH NAOMI?
Like a shipwrecked paddle-boat at
Australia's last cove, I stood there
just looking for meaning. 'You still
living with Naomi?' I asked. The
fellow's name was Bertram, mostly
called Bert. He nodded, 'We trying,
brother.' Funny way to put it, yes.
-
I walked away  -  looking for Naomi
myself had never crossed my mind,
but it wouldn't have been so bad that
day. Maybe I just should have taken
a chance.

15,798. PADDLIN' MADELINE HOME

PADDLIN' MADELINE HOME
(history in the making)
I picked her up at the shoe-shine stand,
where I'd caught a glimpse up her dress.
She smiled back with the allure of a
regular Genghis Khan daughter. Or
maybe it was that other guy, who 
crossed the Alps on elephants to
overtake the Romans? Hannibal, 
yeah. Did he have a daughter, I
wonder?
-
As it stood, there was nothing meek
about her, and we walked over to the
Nanety Arms Hotel  -  one of those
foolish places near Times Square, 
where even the leftover stale donuts 
reeked of sin. Yet you'd never know 
that stuff now unless I told you; the 
place is so clean today that even the 
wax figures in Madame Tussaud's 
don't have fingernails for fear they'd 
get dirty. It's all a long way off now,
and far, far away.
So, we got where we were going, and
she did take off her clothes, just like
I took off my own. The guy had told us
'twenty minutes, Buster  -  12 bucks',
and we used every one.

15,797. THE CLIMATE IS ALWAYS CHANGING AGAIN

THE CLIMATE IS ALWAYS 
CHANGING AGAIN
Most of it is self-serving crap, but
that's what they like and that's how
they want to hear it. It's like a soapbox
derby, with every moron standing on one,
and without cars or wheels this time. They'd
love to keep you all in one place.
-
Watch the turning of the sky; and at night
when the moon passes and stars go dancing.
I've seen too much to stop me now, and all
those whom I've known seem on my side?
Can't figure, and won't. I live my love and
wear my hide.
-
There's a line of cherry trees  - well, there
used to be anyway  -  that ran along the side
of those four acres. The guy who likes money
so much sold them for timber, and the ace
tree-cutters who came by were gloating. He
got six thousand dollars for 5 cherry trees.
There's a climate change for you; bee's knees!

Saturday, November 26, 2022

15,796. LITTLE TO GO FOR WHAT HAS TO SHOW

LITTLE TO GO FOR 
WHAT HAS TO SHOW
The clown pulls back the curtain; the
tears on his eyes are painted on, and
I knew that before he came on  -  to 
show us all the reminders. Tears. 
Sadness. Sorrow.
-
No level-headed monster can alight
upon emotions; it's always one extreme
or the other. Laughter. Crying. Until
even those clowns come home to rest.
-
We go away, satisfied, or at least with
a feeling of having been  -  complete,
made whole, made easier. If not
enlightened, then just 'lightened'
by mirth and jolly.

15,795. 'PRISSY LITTLE BASTARDS'

'PRISSY LITTLE BASTARDS'
You go far to get away, but you
always take your home with you. 
It's a mitigating force; and something
which always lingers: the wrapper you
threw away, from the crap candy you
just ate. Those prissy little bastards
on their fire escape are just like that.
-
They have beveled snouts and flapping
mouths. Unlike the seasons or the winds,
they never change. The bakery boys can
tell you about carnage; their wives can
speak of the slaughter that comes next.
-
At the corner of 17th Street, I used to
stand and watch  -  the people slid by,
silently. As the seasons altered there'd 
be scarves and then galoshes and boots.
Snows and lingering rain. They kept
coming all the same. I'd just walk off,
east to 11th Street, number 509. My
key was in my ankle holster, where I
kept my illegal gun.
-
Some days were sheet-metal gray,
while others turned green and then
faded away  -  the girls came out in 
warm Spring, wearing their most
flimsy things, and boy wasn't that
a new pleasure. My lamplight grew
bright on every long light and each
new girl was truly a treasure.
-
Crowds, and bankers, and pretzel
men, hawking. The taxis converged
where they should have just merged -
the Brooklyn kids, having walked the
bridge, were looking for Guinness on 
tap. For all the rest of the time, the
silence was deep and was genuine.
-
Derelict passings were re-purposed as
restaurant domes or transient homes:
flightless birds leading swallows to their 
own foul gallows. Twenty-minutes down
was Chinatown : roast pork, and Jersey
tourists. How well together the whole
meal went, and I paid so little for it.


15,794. RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,330

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,330
(London calling)
Misery is a doghouse with a 
very long leash; a tether-line
that reaches far. In the 1970's,
mid, it reached from Britain
to Elmira  -  in the person of 
'me.' I had a job, on 1st Street.
at Whitehall Printing (owned 
by the married couple Floyd
'White' and Margaret 'Hall',
thus the combined name). It,
in any case, sounded British 
to me, and was also the NYC 
name of the Whitehall Induction
Center (military/Army/Vietnam).
where 3 simple years or so before
I'd had so much trouble with
the NY/NJ Draft Boards. So
somehow it all made sense,
and seemed to tie my personal
references well-together.
-
Harold Wilson was the pre-Thatcher
Prime Minister of Britain during those
years, and at Whitehall  -  often enough  -
there was sometimes little to do, so,
in attendance at the darkroom there, for
my occasional photo duties (graphic
arts photography, halftones, duotones,
etc., used in printing), I'd have the grand
luxury of bringing in with me that day's
NYTimes, WSJournal, even sometimes
foreign papers like the London Express,
or Le Figaro  -  all purchased along
Water Street, at Rubin's newstand and
stationery store. I'd sit there and just
read for hours, with the occasional
interruption of a shoot or two of a
paste-up or layout, for a newsletter,
flyer, bulletin or tech-sheet, usually
for the likes of Corning Glass Works,
The Hilliard Company, American
LaFrance, DanceMasters, or Kennedy
Valve Co. (fire-hydrant manufacturers).
These were all Elmira or Corning
industries in various stages of decline.
Everything there, before and after the
1972 Hurrican Agnes massive flooding
of the entire downtown and business
district, was running down, with a
dead economy (Jimmy Carter too),
a smoldering junk heap of infrastructure
and local housing stock, ghetto and
welfare problems. The only thing it
lacked was, pretty much, racial
violence, rioting, or discontent. They
named things after cool blacks, and
that always seemed to work. Ernie
Davis High School; Eldridge (Cleaver)
Park. Elmira College, by contrast, was
an oasis of goodness. That's where I
lived; 827 Lincoln Street.
-
It was all good. Old man Rubin (I
never used his first name, nor did
anyone else. It was aways 'Rubin', and
the store was merely 'Rubin's'). I really
liked that guy, and we'd spend a lot
of time sitting around, talking news
and politics. The Six Day War was,
to him, fresh enough. Roberto
Clemente's death in a plane crash
was a fresh tragedy to him (Pittsburgh
Pirates, I think. He died in a food-mercy-
mission to his homeland, Puerto Rico
or somewhere). The New Republic (a
'Liberal Magazine, back then was still
printed on newsprint-paper, not like
today's glossy and high-falutin' rag.
This was still the days of TRB, and
I.F. Stone. We'd sit around discussing
the Friday night opinion shows  -  Louis
Rukeyser's Wall Street Week, and
Washington Week In Review, with
Robert McNeil, and later Paul Duke.
These were great, early, PBS-like
shows, shows that 'normal' people 
seldom touched. We thrived on them.
-
He always asked about my 'boy' - never
my 'son' (I had a 6-year old) Each time
I saw him it was, 'How's your boy?' I
liked that; it felt old-worldly or something.
He too had a son, about 16 or 17, who
did eventually take over the store (Rubin
was, then, already in his 60's). With the
son, it was always just casual hello's,
nothing ever of substance. The last time
I was in Elmira, that store was still there,
in exactly the same spot (a bit across from
the ugly Chemung County Bank building,
rebuild grossly in modern, already very
dated) architecture. It too is still there,
marring Water Street. Rubin himself is
long gone.
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Anyhow, those were the same years as
the most miserable Labor Party years
that Britain had ever experienced through
the modern era, or post-war era, depending
on which piece you read. Strikes and
shortages, two freezing Winters, lack of
Coal, coal-miner labor stoppages, The 
'Troubles' in Ireland  -  Sinn Fein and
the IRA, and all of that - (Sinn Fein
meaning 'Ourselves Alone'). Bloody
Sunday was a big date too; U2 and
Rubin were almost blood brothers.
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Those miserable British days stayed
in my mind, for a long time. It was
one thing to read all about it, or talk
and handle opinions on what was
going on, but it was another to try and
imagine the local situations. On the one
hand, Roberto Clemente going down
on a poverty-level starvation food run
was a sort of parallel to the misery of
coal, food, and shelter in Britain. Central
America bore the slimmest relation to
Great Britain, but the misery was the
same. We'd talk about it, comparing
notes about what we'd read - Orwell,
'Keep the Aspidistra Flying,' 'Down
and Out In Paris and London,' and
others  -  he did pretty much know
all the same books I did at that point.
It was a real joy. I never got to know
the density of his religion, nor to which
Elmira Temple he may have belonged,
(I'd guessed he did). For a local and
circulatory 'businessman', Rubin was
a real treasure for me.
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At the same time s all this, I was
studying Philosophy at Elmira College,
with John McLaughlin (no, not the
jazz-musician one), and English
Lit. and Composition, with Robert
Steber. Cool people each. The art
department, which I talked of before,
had as Artist-In Residence, Gandy
Brody  -  an old, beatnik era, NYC
artist of some renown. He'd have
friends come in, and they'd stay
with him and hang at the art studios.
Poet Kenneth Koch was the star of
that show. It was all so cool. The 70's
began dragging on. Carter to Ford,
the same useless faces, just different
people. The same fucked-over words.
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I'd sometimes feel as guilty as hell 
just buying an ice-cream cone or a 
magazine, keeping in mind all the 
horrors and the misery of what the 
people of England were then going
through (1973 era). Soon after that, 
during the Reagan years, one of his 
morons came up with what they 
called 'The Misery Index', by
which to gauge the politics and 
the 'popularity' of their own
machinations of the 'American'
economy, which was becoming
equally despondent. Not that
they cared any about the people,
mind you, just their own butts, 
and popularity, and insulation 
from any ill effects. Bastards 
all. stateside, and London too.
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Or, as The Clash later put it, in
'London Calling' : London calling 
to the faraway towns; Now war is 
declared and battle comes down
London calling to the underworld
Come out of the cupboard, you boys and girls
London calling, now don't look to us
Phony Beatlemania has bitten the dust
London calling, see we ain't got no swing
'Cept for the ring of that truncheon thing
The ice age is coming, the sun's zooming in
Meltdown expected, the wheat is growing thin
Engines stop running but I have no fear
'Cause London is drowning and I live by the river
(London calling) To the imitation zone
Forget it, brother, you can go it alone
London calling to the zombies of death
Quit holding out and draw another breath
London calling and I don't wanna shout
But while we were talking I saw you nodding out
London calling, see we ain't got no high
Except for that one with the yellowy eyes
The ice age is coming, the sun's zooming in
Engines stop running, the wheat is growing thin
A nuclear era but I have no fear
'Cause London is drowning and I, I live by the river
The ice age is coming, the sun's zooming in
Engines stop running, the wheat is growing thin
A nuclear era but I have no fear
'Cause London is drowning and I, I live by the river
Now get this
London calling, yes, I was there too
And you know what they said?
Well, some of it was true
London calling at the top of the dial
And after all this, won't you give me a smile?
London calling
I never felt so much alike."