RUDIMENTS, pt. 558
('I remember so much so little')
So, on drives like that,
('I remember so much so little')
So, on drives like that,
two times a day, you start
thinking about stuff, just to
pass the driving time. It
doesn't have to be important,
not even likely - the bark on
the trees and the rocky New
York State topography. How,
if you have twenty thousand
dollars, fifty times, that's a
million. And then how, if you
break anything down to its
smallest constituent elements,
or views of same, everything
becomes weird and absurd.
And how a lot of those Nature
shows, all they do is exactly
that, and then talk about it -
greatly magnified by fine
microscopic-views of
squiggly things that end
up amazing the viewer,
most any viewer actually,
because real scientists would
not be watching that crud
anyway. Life's like that.
I drove that ridiculous drive
day after day. One time, just
after the Jersey Meadowlands,
there, some sort of traffic
infraction going on and
things had stopped to such
a degree that there was NO
movement, even at 6am, for
what seemed like an hour
right outside of Challenger Way,
which I guess was an escape
route for an alternate (but it
wasn't really anyway, more just
a truckers and warehouse dead
end) road. I couldn't get there
anyway since I was about 5
lanes over and dead-locked
in. So I shut the car off and
just kept cat-napping, perhaps
10 minutes at a time. No one
else was doing anything
better; this was just before
the advent of seemingly
every Earthling's possession
of a hand-held connection
to the rest of the world,
texting while fidgeting,
watching while texting,
or talking while sleeping,
and people just seemed
not to have much to do. I
remembered once a guy
I knew from St. George Press,
who had left the job and taken
a job somewhere up North Jersey
way, requiring the Parkway each
day, and all he later said, about
traffic and all, was 'You would
not believe, I swear, the things
I could tell you I see people
doing in their cars - in traffic,
driving, or stuck in traffic.'
He said 'Girls putting on
makeup while doing 60' was
1 percent of what he could
tell me. I guess. Now they
do all that too, I suppose,
along with texting-talking-
and shopping. Make a quick
left at the LOL.
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In these days, also, the Tappan
Zee Bridge was still the old
one. The new, replacement span
had not yet been built, though
it was talked about but always
without funding. It has since
been replaced, and is about as
ugly as a nun's butt (That's
conjecture; never seen one).
The old bridge, what was
cool about it was how it was
almost right down on the
water, built very low to the
river. I'd never seen anything
quite like it - and that low
stance was part of the reason
they wished it changed : it
was a fairly crazy, long,
high-speed span, no one
really cared, and the
guardrail safety situation
was meager - so they ended
up over the years with lots
of cars (and probably bodies)
running over and right into
the good old Hudson River.
This was right at the area, as
well, known as 'The Cove'
or Tarrytown Cove - big
Washington Irving territory,
Ichabod Crane and The
Headless Horseman. If only
they knew then. It was all
pretty funny anyway. Used
to be (they built the railroads
later) men would go there
and hardly ever come home,
tarrying so long in the pleasant
taverns and inns of the cove.
It got the name, over time, of
'Tarrytown'.
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Millwood itself, as I pointed
out, was pretty wooded and a
lot more sparse and utilitarian
than all the frumpy places
around it, again, as I mentioned:
Chappaqua, Pleasantville,
Thornwood, etc. They all reeked
of money, while Millwood more
reeked of woodsmoke, fire,
chain-saw and trimmer oils.
Lots of tire-warehouse sorts of
things too - mechanics, overalls,
grease oil; girls that looked to be
ready to fight a bear. Broken
down and abandoned cars in
yards - like what you'd see
when driving over to Phoenicia
from Woodstock. I'd trade any
one hair of it for the kind of
schmuck-shit that's around
Avenel, at the other extreme
from, say, Chappaqua; the
similarity is that they're both
as inauthentic as Christmas
night. On the one hand, money,
and on the other hand, creep-ey.
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Every so often, up by Millwood,
there'd be a bog or swampy place
along the way, on the tertiary
roads to nowhere. You'd see
targets on trees, and well-worn
paths back and forth maybe a
hundred paces. Here and there
some form of killer truck parked
a'kilter on a mud-rise or small
hill. No one ever around but
something, you sensed, was
going on. That's the same feeling
the New jersey Pine Barrens used
to have, once you got to Chatsworth
and out past Busby's General Store
and all the rest. Sand roads and
eeriness, abandoned cranberry
camps, sheds and shacks with
Gulf or Mobile old-style gas
pumps nearby, in the ground.
I once found a whole row of
1953 Plymouths, all faded and
leaning, in the middle of nowhere
just where they were left. They
each had that bizarre look of
when the old safety-glass
windshields would get sun-baked
and fog over and the safety-layer
turned opaque. Strange scene.
Funny though, back then they
were only 40 years old. Not
really o-l-d in car terms now;
but then they seemed ancient.
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Once in Millwood, and to the
warehouse - also weird - that
all disappeared. These people
were New Yorkers, on their
barreling way to Princeton soon
enough, or back to it, and they
bore all the hallmarks of that,
nothing hillbilly or target-practice
about them. They just carried
all that in with them, and carried
it back out - Millwood never
cared, nor noticed. But I didn't
like that interloper feel either.
It ruined things - the way I
figured it, country people
ought to be left alone; to go
on, and prosper in their own
ways. So different from the
ways and learnings of these
suburban hicks (like me) flying
in and out, troubling their systems
about panninis and wraps, pizza
toppings and special roasted
vegetables. It ain't right.
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Another thing about that bridge,
and the new one, replacement
bridge, being so horrible looking.
Over the years, America has lost
its own handiwork, had lost its
design forces. Euro-bridges,
Singapore and Hong Kong
bridges, they all look crappy
and moon-like, but that's what
we're getting now. Just like the
Tappan Zee Bridge, they did the
same thing here, to the Goethals
Bridge. It looks like some
happy-land suspension bridge
for children. We've let everything
get away from us - that old
structural iron and steel stuff
had fortitude and power and
presence and strength. Now all
we get is Legos and power-paks
from places like Game-Stop
wrecking all we see.
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It seemed sometimes that the
faster I drove (on these trips
no one does less than 75, it
seems) the faster I was running
headlong into a modern world I
neither wanted nor was sure of. I
was still living in a solitary world,
one of pencil tips and ball point
pens and yellow legal pads and
notebooks - my own, personal
driving distraction sometimes was
scribbling a thought or a phrase
onto the scratch pad it's mounted
on the console. It was easy enough
except for my often-distracted ire
at a pen which turned balky. So I
went to pencils. I'd learned that
many thoughts, even words and
lines, just come and go and if not
written down were, 15 minutes later,
simply unrecallable. I never knew
why, and it became a mental game
I often practiced while driving.
There was a cool book entitled,
'The Memory Palace of Mateo
Ricci,' by Jonathan Spence, that
was a lovely hand-in glove fit
for just this subject matter.
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(end of pt. two, 'book 'em...')
was a lovely hand-in glove fit
for just this subject matter.
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(end of pt. two, 'book 'em...')
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