RUDIMENTS, pt. 176
Making Cars
One thing I never, ever, liked
was manufactured emotion -
pretty much the kind of stuff
you'd see back then, 1960's
TV. It was, and still is, really
miserable. And not only is it
miserable but it's also
responsible for much of
the resultant problems we
face now; all sorts of things
just now coming home to roost.
The results of sexist violence,
abuse, use of women as sex
objects and men as walking
lust-buckets. That's the paradigm
as it was drawn, and guess who
drew it? The same breed of snipe
who still draw it. And their
vulgarity and abuse of others
is well-rewarded. It's a real
dilemma, and one marked and
made much worse by the
validation given to it by the
millions who sit through and
watch it, attend it, ask for it.
So, I guess there's nothing
to do.
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I used to wonder anyway
about people who'd be
interested in that line of work.
It all seemed so forced and
so artificial. In the seminary,
incredibly enough, I got mixed
up with that myself but it was
restricted. Obviously, out of
bounds for us was anything
dealing with the normal angst,
sorrow, flames of love and
passion, and any of the other
human emotions that go into
real life. An insipid, de-salinized
version of all this was on par
for them anyway - having
stripped their 'religion' of
anything of value they all
basically walked backwards
through life to be sure that
everything behind them had
been cleansed. I think the
only reason 'Mary' was a
'Virgin' was because in any
other, normal, format they'd
neither understand it nor know
how to handle it. Thus, justice.
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A lot of New York City, at
heart, was an actor's city. They
came and went, they had entire
districts set up for them - there
was Actor's Studio, Actor's School,
and on and on it went. Schubert
Alley, Sniffen Court, all these lit
out-of-the-way theatres and
performance spaces where
actors lived. Drama schools,
drama bookstores, playwright
bookstores and music racks.
The historic premise of
everything was everywhere -
The Golden Swan (lived on),
Eugene O'Neill, Provincetown
Playhouse - all sorts of vanguard
and guerrilla theaters. I mingled
around all that, plus the cabarets
and the burlesque houses, and
all those nascent gay places too.
It was part of my signature to
be everywhere, taking it all in.
Some old, grizzly guys drove
cabs just so that they could
be constantly amidst the raw
material of writing and stories
that they could record, re-write
and steal. All those stories,
gotten for free, later turned into
a million bucks. There was a
great crossover where all these
things had paths that converged
- the wiry, evil decibel level of
'Taxi Driver' and 'Mean Street's
to the Cactus Flower fluff and
'Prisoner of Second Avenue'
half comedy but always half
serious too. There was trouble
everywhere and out along the
streets, if you played it correctly,
there were tales and stories
worth performance, worth the
retelling. But the strange
difference was, as I saw it,
as follows : none of these
people were New York people.
They'd all come from somewhere
else on that crazy romantic notion
of maybe hitting the big time
while at some undiscovered
stage-role in NYC, the Great
White Way, under the lights,
as it were. A huge pastiche
of BS, it all was. The best
stuff going on was in the
cavernous little hovels with
dark, glossy painted stages
and one bad microphone;
it was all visions of something
else - I was never sure what,
except that it was always
insincere, broad emotions
with not real people playing
roles, but 'type' written into
script, each 'type' never real,
just instead representing
some lead-in to a desired
emotion. It was all fake.
The best thing I ever saw,
actually, was at Circle in
the Square Theater, down
in the village, when Circle
in the Square was around,
and it was Al Pacino, live on
this tiny little round stage ten
feet from us, in 'American
Buffalo.' Pretty much
about these two city losers
trying to cash in on a
buffalo-head nickel one of
them got, thinking it was
worth a bunch. It was pretty
intense, and probably
overplayed. But they got the
point across, and the cool
thing was the spittle flying
out of Pacino's mouth, and
allover us in the first two
rows eight there. He sure
was a wet emoter.
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Al Pacino though was at least a
New Yorker, in that consummate
sense they usually otherwise try
to get across by type-casting some
mug-faced, crooked-looking guy
who mutters in a bad mood all the
time. By that they assume that you
will subliminally read the 'assumed'
character out of the face they supply
you. It works, but it's never authentic,
and, mostly in New York anyway,
nothing else ever is either. Mostly
because of all that acting veneer
on everything. People there are
always pretending to be richer
and more hip than they really are.
The falseness and the pretense is
crazy and legendary, and it's
compensated for in the stark and
blunt outlooks most people
carry. Who else in the world
could be happy and content once
realizing that, by living there they
are, by definition, (and by my
present-day calculations), probably
using up, that is wasting, I'd
say 3 dollars dollars an hour.
Just for being there : living
expenses, food, transportation,
fees, rents, taxes, and all the rest,
plus the added expense tacked
onto everything you buy. That's
just so to SAY you're cool and
hip, by living there. That's like
$70 extra dollars a day, which by
the end of an average month is
$2100. I always figured that to
be a heck of a lot of overhead,
and why bother when you can
live somewhere else, and still be
as close as needed, for 1/3 that.
Anyway, that's eventually became
my thinking - living in the outer
swamps and reeds and who cares.
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It was the other people, the guys
and the girls who hit it big, who
managed to find these multi-million
dollar brownstones and apartment
places and all - cars, horse-stables,
private gardens. I used to gape at a
lot of that whenever I saw it. There's
one street, not much of anything really,
but a collection of old estate kind of
brownstones and all, facing a crummy
little library and a playing field and an old
1900's school on the corner later turned
into a shelter and then a community pool
site in the depression and now back to
being a school again:(St Luke's Place).
For a while, all these new-money types,
like Gwyneth Paltrow and that ilk, they
kept buying places here. Coming. Staying
a while. And then going. I never could
figure how anyone could make that much
money, that quickly, and just throw
it down. Ah, you know those
new-money types.
and the girls who hit it big, who
managed to find these multi-million
dollar brownstones and apartment
places and all - cars, horse-stables,
private gardens. I used to gape at a
lot of that whenever I saw it. There's
one street, not much of anything really,
but a collection of old estate kind of
brownstones and all, facing a crummy
little library and a playing field and an old
1900's school on the corner later turned
into a shelter and then a community pool
site in the depression and now back to
being a school again:(St Luke's Place).
For a while, all these new-money types,
like Gwyneth Paltrow and that ilk, they
kept buying places here. Coming. Staying
a while. And then going. I never could
figure how anyone could make that much
money, that quickly, and just throw
it down. Ah, you know those
new-money types.
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