RUDIMENTS, pt. 431
(avenel - silent spring)
I often wondered about a
lot of things, personal stuff
that no one else would have
shared. The sort of things
that just stayed in my mind
and kind of haunted me;
and there wasn't anything
much I could do about it.
It was my make-up. For
instance, that guy in Fords,
William Pasterak, at 27
Hamilton Avenue. The
newspaper said he was the
engineer of the locomotive
that day that ran us down.
What kind of poor-ass life
did that guy ever have after
that experience? Did he
sleep nights? Did he ever
settle back in? Did he even
keep his job? Is there some
sort of railroad discipline
that severs your employment
when you have a train wreck?
I hoped he went on okay and
without psychic scarring. None
of it was through any fault
of his own, and I figured he
must have worked that out
for himself. I went past
his house, or that house
anyway, a few times, but I
never knew if he still lived
there. Maybe he high-tailed
it out of town after that
experience. I sometimes
just wanted to knock on
the door and say, 'Bill,
Bill, look it's me, the
kid you hit - I'm OK,
it's cool. I made it!'
Poor guy; for all I know
he'd have keeled over
from a heart attack or
shock. Even cooler, the
fireman on that train was
a guy named William
Gleeson, with his address
simply listed as 'Philadelphia.'
That was pretty far-off in
1958; way too much for a
commute, unless maybe
this Gleeson fellow just
traveled around with his
train, until it got back to
Philly. I don't know. The
whole world was so much
more primitive, and silent;
like some old movie, just
always playing off in the
background with that weird
sort of swirly organ music to
hit the high and low points
with the different musics.
Sound that 'resembled' the
moment it was representing.
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Every so often, back out
behind my house, and the
others of course, along the
tracks, there'd be brush fires.
This was back when train
windows used to open, etc.,
so we always figured an errant,
tossed, cigarette started things.
Fire would start rolling, in a kind
of 'smolder' way, spreading, yes
but always staying low and
horizontal. Eventually the
fire guys would show up,
but they had to drag like
a half-mile's worth of hoses
and stuff through driveways
and backyards and all, so it
always took a long time. Time
during which the fire prospered.
The funny thing was how there
was never any real wildlife or
ground animals or anything to be
disrupted It was lifeless, and it's
was never any real wildlife or
ground animals or anything to be
disrupted It was lifeless, and it's
kind of hard to fathom today,
with deer and stuff running all
over those back lands (I know
because, running my dog there
and going along Paddock Street,
there's a herd of some 12 or 16
deer, always. My dog's not a
chaser sort, and they all just
stare each other down now
and then, sort of reading each
other's presence through scent
and quick movement. If there's
no movement going on, they
just stand there looking. A
cool life; we should all do
that, there'd be a lot less
death and destruction).
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Anyway, what I was saying
was that with these fires, there
was nothing ever jumping
around, no scurrying wildlife
or ground animals or birds.
The fires basically did nothing
except a more or less natural
cleansing burn. Things were
black maybe for a Summer
month, and then the green took
all back over. The whole area
around here, with DDT and
sprays and new houses and all
the cut trees and all, was just a
big dead-spot for most all of the
1950's and 1960's. I almost
can't see how we lived or how
normal adults would have
continually allowed that sort
of desecration of the natural
world. It's worse today, I know,
because now you can purchase
your own hand-held spray
versions of root-poisons, and
then see yourself on the TV
portrayed in ads as the happy
idiot killing weeds out on his
lawn. 'The next installment of
'Sterility and Defoliants'comes
on at three. Be sure not to miss it.'
'Sterility and Defoliants'comes
on at three. Be sure not to miss it.'
Even more nasty now is how all
the towns have sewer grates
which now instruct you not
to dump or pour anything in
them because it all runs into the
waterway that feeds the river,
etc. It's all so cute, and even has
the image of a fish on it. Problem is,
the towns are the worst offenders,
and every lawn and garden there
drains, as rainwater-runoff, all
those poisons right down into
those sewers anyway. The world
and its people are just so stupid :
Have you seen any mutant
two-headed kids lately?
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So we grew up with just about
nothing really 'natural' going on
around us EXCEPT those fires.
On the cusp, as we were, of that
'better living through chemistry'
stuff, we were being used as
experimental human bait, just
to see what would happen to
us. Just as every chrysalis turns
into something else, I guess too
we each became something
other than our 9 year old
selves. I figure anyway. When
you live in a place that doesn't
really offer much of anything
except rancor and rainwater,
there's not much to be
expected from within those
changes. You've got to sort
of boot the ball way past the
net of the usual mercantile
and artificial crap they send
your way. You really don't
need to buy local; the same
crap is available wherever
you go. Rachel Carson, you
say, lived on Clark Place?
Hmmmm, Silent Spring
for sure, I say, to all that.
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