Tuesday, October 23, 2018

11,261. RUDIMENTS, pt. 480

RUDIMENTS, pt. 480
(Milk)
One cannot re-imagine
the past (since you already
know the results), but you
can re-draw it, by changing
the conclusions. And thereby
hangs a tale. When I got to
the farm country and the farm
work there I ran with, there
was an old guy, already 80,
I think, who lived, with his
wife, also aged, on a really
old-fashioned farm, within
2 miles of me. Everything was
done by hand  -  nothing was
powered, all the winches and
ropes and pulleys where manual.
He did have an ancient John
Deere tractor, not often used.
John might as well have been
Amish; but he wasn't, by any
means. Neither he nor his wife
possessed any of that world-view
or the approach to things that
went with it. He was just ornery,
old, straight American stock. He
was a huge, still very strong,
old guy, with hands the size of a
small state. He lumbered around,
always in farm overalls, the kind
with the straps that went up
over the shoulders. Large feet
and boots. Steady and quiet,
his fortitude was strong and
ancient. John Harkness, and
Mary. Mary was like him in
all ways, with the household
side of thing, cooking old
recipes, doilies, neatness,
and waxed furniture that
shown. They had 15 or 20
Jersey cows (the brown kind,
richer butterfat content in
their milk, thus a bit better
paying from the creamery).
Everything was done by
hand  -  as I said  -  and that
including the milking, the
milk-cans, the delivery to
the dairy, the spreading of
 manure onto the fields,
the haying, the sticking,
and the cleaning. The old
barn was huge, and old  -
it might as well have been
1887 in there. The way it
all worked was that anybody
who had any extra time would
give a little of it to John and
Mary  -  someone was always
there, pitching in, helping out,
doing chores, whatever. Mary
always had food out, as her
thanks. John said very little.
Ever. I worked there numerous
times, in the hay mow, hauling,
cutting, sweating (a billion
degrees), lifting and the rest.
Everyone around was sort of
down and out anyway, except
maybe for the Mattocks (large
landowners, with a really
productive farm, almost,
industrial-like in operation
and space), and the Browns.
(The guy I'd bought my place
from). The poverty was the
kind that, because rural and
spread all around equally, no
one minded and everyone
took it on the chin equally
and helped each other out
when the pain got going.
Other than that, it wasn't
ever spoken much of. Those
that had, had  -  those without
just did without. Sometimes
you'd sense an undercurrent
of anger, or anxiety, or
even a simmering violence
in a few close to cracking,
but it usually found outlet.
-
John was so deeply committed
to the past that I'm not sure
he even knew what the
telephone was about. They
were a storied couple
roundabouts, because of
their ways, and their silence,
and their longevity; almost
mysterious; it was, maybe,
 mystical. Long about two
years in, the milk-production
companies  -  those who
took the daily product, and
paid, and any of this doable
as an 'industry' for all these
working people decided to
distribute their edict. Milk
would NO longer be accepted,
as of some date that was about
6 months off, in the usual way.
Daily milk-can pickups were
to be stopped, and each farmer
would need to have installed, or
in process at least, a bulk-tank,
which would hold, keep cold,
(38 degrees) and circulate, a
week's worth of milk. It would
also necessitate a paved driveway
for the bulk trucks to enter and
leave from, to the bulk-tank.
This meant that each farmer, and
I new at least 6 or 8 of them
going through this, soon faced
a 15,000 dollar or so outlay for
all this, and the clock was ticking.
Everyone flew to the bank, to
make their local arrangements.
-
Some time passed. There was
a silence, and old John never
made a move. At 80 years old,
or whatever the moment's age
was, 82 even, it was too much
for him  -  this new world stuff,
there weird concerns, the ways
and means. Everyone waited,
to see what John would do.
One morning Mary went out,
looking for John. She entered
the barn, and there was John.
Hanging from the rafters.
-
I don't know what happened
next, or who cut him down or
how any of that occurred. There
used to be an old saying of some
sort, 'What can you say after
you say you're sorry?'  -  it 
went something like that. T'was
a horrible scene. I'd never seen 
a funeral of that nature; a string
of farm-cars and others, single
file, along the skinny roadway 
over to East Springfield for the
burial. I guess most everybody
came out, and later on, back at
John and Mary's farmhouse, a
gigantic spread had been laid
out and  maybe 200 people
came through that afternoon.
My wife was part of the
help-crew with the food and
all, and I can still remember
that day  - the light through the
windows, the neatness and the
propriety of everything in all
its strength and silence, like
the large glove of tradition
into which everyone's fingers
were fitting. Small talk, sadness,
shock, and silence. Mary still
appeared dazed and far gone.
That was the last I'd see of 
any of that. I never did find
out how she made out, or 
got on.
-
Anyway, over at Warren's, 
(the house now all pitted 
and woodpeckered and
abandoned), the tank was
duly installed and the
driveway put in. We'd get
a weekly, or sometimes
less than a week, tank truck
to back in and take the
cold, frothy milk away in
tubes and pipes. The truck
looked just like an other
gasoline or fuel-oil tanker
you ever see. Some days,
before the truck arrived,
I'd just sit there staring in
to the milk tank, after I'd
opened the top so as to
watch the big fan-paddle
blade make its circular
swish through all the
foamy-topped milk. Cold.
White. Looking for all the
world, almost, like a huge
tub of Elmer's Glue. Which
it was, in a way, the hold that
it had on these sometimes
desperate people.

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