RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,071
(hidden glories ? why)
A number of things I
(hidden glories ? why)
A number of things I
want to cover. Sometimes
I forget them, and have to
go back. To begin with,
from early on I've been
all screwed up with words;
they've always sort of inhibited
me, kept me in check, all
those meanings and variations.
I never did get too far off-center
from any of that. The different
tongues of different people.
Sometimes I'd go over to
Williamsburg, Brooklyn just
to hear the strange and
ancient inflections of the
Jewish people there. That
sort of religion is very layered;
there are all levels of Jewishness
going on, and they each have
their own proclivities, and they're
all clawing at the same old
mythology that comes out
of that strangely distant and
alien Hebraic tongue. Weirder
yet, it all sounded somehow
unearthly to me, as if this massive
wave of people from some other
'place' certainly, had been
dropped here as aliens. And I'm
not meaning the Middle East or
Kiev and Russia or Eastern Europe
either. I'm meaning outer space;
the deep environs of some old
and timeless and matriculated
culture of another blood entire.
There was no way I was fitting in,
and I knew that. Just walking there
had me suspect - I'd pass tables,
a few times more organized than
other times, at which there'd be
stern Israeli types, anguishedly
angry, seeking funds, support,
money for trees, and any other
sort of support they could get.
Militants, spitting words out
in that common tongue they
just heaved around, brusquely.
The Christian embrace of the
'reverence' afforded by acting
and speaking softly, whispering;
of that there was none, or little.
Militants, spitting words out
in that common tongue they
just heaved around, brusquely.
The Christian embrace of the
'reverence' afforded by acting
and speaking softly, whispering;
of that there was none, or little.
There was a big campaign for
tree-plantings too, and all I could
ever think of was how barren
and sandy it must be? Or, must it
be? I remember, in the seminary,
the land there was like that, but
with lots of grassy places too,
and with small rises in the
topography. In fact, back there
when I'd walk around, or when
Leo Benjamin and I were out
walking on those great, odd
jaunts we'd take, it all seemed
very Biblical; New Testament
topography for sure. It was easy
to picture a bunch of seedy,
cast-offs, itinerant disciples, and
their lead guy, just waltzing
and talking their way across the
landscape until some town or
village was reached and a small
scene suddenly arose, for preaching
or further talk. Appearances were
always miraculously pre-announced,
and people would already then be
gathered, with their sick and lame
too. And with pointed maps for
where the newest dead were.
How weird was that? All my
imaginings.
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But, anyway, back to Brooklyn.
Everything was a storefront, which
was also strange : Some old homes,
even houses, that had somehow
outlasted time and which had
been given Yeshiva or Temple
uses. It was all strange, and cheap
too, cheesy. I noticed these people
gave little over to the churchly sort
of 'decoration' that Christians often
did - these places were as unkempt
and plain as the Hebrew clothing
I'd see hundreds still wearing. The
long, black coats, and the tufted
hats that denoted various ranks
within the religion, or the usual,
plain old Jewish fedora, tophat
things, whatever they may have
been called. The tallis, the vest,
the robe, everything most often
already soiled or creased or
dirtied. None of that mattered;
this was all God stuff. Of course,
for them it was G-d stuff. Why one
couldn't even utilize the proper
name, that baffled me; all that
Yahweh stuff and the rest. It all
seemed like the one same word
to me; Jesus looked enough like
Yahweh, over eons of language
years, that I could even believe
that happening - again, all the
layers of Messiah tales, stories
untold of the Meschach to come,
all the differing faction, those
saying He'd already come, those
saying He was here now, but
hidden from us, keeping the
world together, doing magical
Hebraic things all past recognition
and exposure. The secret mantelpieces
of a G-d of unspeakable atrocities and
bizarre promises, rejections, changes
of mind alterations, second tries,
enhancements and finally, to my
mind, abandonments. Until?
Until He, She, It, or They return
again, which always brought me
right back to my initial point -
these people really were aliens.
They distinguished in a million
ways, differences between meat,
pork, clean, kosher, bled correctly,
or not. They haggled over sweaters
and shoes, prices, torn weaves
and variable shekels and dollars.
Who knew and who cared? Women
in wigs? The plainest-looking
women in the world? But said to
be sexually voracious? The married
women had to cover their real hair
with wigs to not be seen? By others?
Hair? Head hair? What gives? The
little sitdown eateries, to be then
carefully considered and marked
as 'dairy' or 'non-dairy.' Each had
terrible coffee, no matter, but in
half of them you couldn't even
beat the wrap by using milk or
cream! They'd throw you some
artificial crap instead, a steely
powder, to color of one's coffee.
How real or authentic a Creation
was any of this if the real world
couldn't even be faced? They
seemed to worry over every
little iota of the strangest things,
each a blemish, and yet ignore
completely other things. Their
supposed other-worldly concerns
were superseded, constantly, by
their concerns over money. Each
day yellow school-buses, with
adults aboard, thirty, forty at a
time, and with Hebrew lettering
on the sides of each bus, would
be seen crossing the bridge, back
and forth, to the diamond and
the jewelry district around 47th
Street, where their only concerns
turned suddenly very real and
material - jewels, gems, diamonds,
and all the glitz that 'their' Heaven
held. A heaven of profit and gain,
one penny and nickel at a time.
So strange, but plant a tree in the
holy land nonetheless.
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Secret words. An ancient language.
Tribal clannishness. I once went
to Emerson, NJ, in order to find
the grave of the (Jewish) writer
Delmore Schwartz - (who died
in midtown, miserable, mad, and
abandoned, and was only buried,
later, by his uncle, after the body
laid unclaimed) - and, asking
for his name - location - burial
site, amidst thousands there, not
one of the ancient Jews in the
directory office recognized the
name, the reputation, the writer,
but their first questions were of
'Which tribe was he?' They meant
'Cohens,' Levi's,' etc. I guess 12
in total; which each had their own
sections. I had no clue, but we
were able to locate him by the
name anyway. This was just one
of my quandaries.
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I always wondered about how
people would say, for instance,
that the 'vowels' were AEIOU,
and sometimes Y. English was
quirky. What did they mean,
sometimes 'Y'? All I ever figured
was, for words like myopic, or
synthetic, or synergy, or mystic,
or symbolic, or psychotic or cyclic.
or symbolic, or psychotic or cyclic.
that the 'Y' in those words acted
really as an 'I'. But, like the Jewish
wig thing, who cared? Then I just
figured, maybe they meant to
say, 'And sometimes Why?'
Strange word, that 'why.' Is
that a vowel at the end, or not?
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