Thursday, September 30, 2021

13,850. BOUND DRAGON

 BOUND DRAGON
Wheel sound makes the chickadees
uncoil, marking time amidst the arc
and curve of lithesome limbs. I can't
win, oh breakfast of champions, being
here on the ground with you.
-
My supplemental terms achieve me
much, though it's much of nothing
as well. I can't stop staring, but I do.


Wednesday, September 29, 2021

13,849. JUST LIKE JOHN DONNE DONE IT

JUST LIKE JOHN 
DONNE DONE IT
Sometimes as I review my life, 
I realize I'm going to die : This
does not make me happy; in
fact it makes me cry. But I stay
steadfast in the quest of a sadness,
within the theme of staying put.
And if I salvage what I can from 
such moments as those I've left,
I perhaps can lift my heart and
head and not be so bereft. Ask
not for whom the bell tolls. 
It tolls for me?

Tuesday, September 28, 2021

13,848. BIRTHDAY : AND SO WHAT?

BIRTHDAY: AND SO WHAT?
(an abstract)
Who remembers where we're going? 
Chocolate broom Paulette wanted 
to beat it.....with a bloom. All things
too. Even the impaired : False idols
and idle saints at their grottos with
the imperfections of man.
-
Over in McGovern's bar, in Newark,
we were sitting at the union meeting;
the back room was humming with
guys. Thirty men, all nursing beers.
A falsetto contingent of gangsters,
sitting together while drinking their
swill, admiring all that they have.
-
Money and dues and other guys' wives.
Pathetic 2nd homes at the Jersey shore, 
where their filthy sons and daughters
hang out for more.
-
The little dead-end street we lived on :
They call me the Japanese landlord and
I don't ever know why.
-
Shameful peanuts; let's call this one
something nice  -  the regular soldier
with the missing arm; the peg-legged
sailor puking off stern.
-
When the completion comes, the
partial will come to an end  -  the
whole loss will it be of this green,
green, dwindled Earth. I take my
humiliation on  a grand scale. The
biggest within mind is all I can take.


13,847. USING ONLY THE RIGID FORMATION

USING ONLY THE 
RIGID FORMATION
I came out of the mist from somewhere
I guess. Before my time I remember so
little. Car-shine glinted off cars in the
sun, and I remember that hitting my eyes
when young. Now, I think nothing of it
at all. In a somnolent way I move on.
-
Card-sharks and depilatron matrons;
Asian ladies always plucking hairs.
Tall guys, of old, made taller by
tophats and vertically long coats  -
sold by the inch, I'm sure. There's
money for the taking (and I should
know where there's more). But I don't.
My vein is depleted; the motherlode
gone. This mineshaft is empty. I'd
best move on.

13,846. SCANDAL-RIDDEN NEWSBOYS

SCANDAL-RIDDEN NEWSBOYS
They run in here without much palaver  -
only because I think they don't know 
much to talk abut anyway. In order to
begin, there's got to be some content.
-
Thrown straight in from the waterfront
docks, these kids are almost urchins;
yelling lousy headlines along the lousy
streets; dodging carts and wagons all
the day. Where they eat and sleep, who
can say? There's no one responsible
for such a type of care.
-
Mothers are rumors, and fathers are
myths. 'There's business to do, and 
let's get on with it. Ya' lousy shit,
y'er in my way.'

Monday, September 27, 2021

13,845. WHY RUN WITH MAX REYNARD?

WHY RUN WITH 
MAX REYNARD?
'This is some rusty stuff, you old
paranormal upstart. There are things
here even I've forgot.' I was talking,
actually, with Max's wife, a goodly
girl whom I had always liked. And
I think she knew that too.
-
It was nothing like playing marbles
in Hell, sleeping under covers, or
swapping spit  -  as used to be said
in the good old days. No, now it
was all zone zero and circumspect.
-
I idled my time at her table. She'd
made me some Earl Grey tea. The
flat-out scent of flattery was hard
as hell but staying put.
-
So she asked why I'd come. 'I came
to see Max,' I said. She replied, 'Max
has died, or weren't you told?' I had
to stop and think. 'My God, no. This
is news to me.' 
-
She sat down next to me began to
cry. 'It was quick, and so beguiling.
He died on the way down, to the
ground. The doctor said he never
even knew what hit him. His heart
just burst.' I said I'd never heard
it put quite that way.

Sunday, September 26, 2021

13,844. MOONSTRUCK?

MOONSTRUCK?
Sometimes the Moon descends 
from its Heaven's perch in a
blanket of clouds, and rests
upon the earth. For comfort,
or for solace, perhaps. We
otherwise do not know.

18,843. RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,215

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,215
('Rahway Logic')
I'm a few days late here with
this new chapter  -  my self
imposed schedule took  a 
dump  -  but something's 
bugging me and that same
something has kept me 
shying away from sitting 
here and plodding through
another life experience. It
has thrown me for a basic,
logic-loop, let's call it, and
I've needed time to recover
the thoughts I need. Not 
saying I have, but here I 
go: Back in the mid 1970's,
while living in Elmira, we
spent a lot of time at nearby
Cornell University as well.
At that time, as well, the
newly-installed Professor of
Something, Davenport Chair
of Asronomy or something,
was carl Sagan  -  just then
at he start of an illustrious 
career which would eventually
give him riches and fame. (We
mostly know him as the presenter
of a TV spectacular called '
Cosmos.' I guess 1980's, can
t really recall. But everyone
knows that 'Billions and billions'
catchphrase that went viral  -  yes,
before there even was a viral.
-
Actually, he never really uttered
the 'Billions' thing. It was a sort
of mass-misquote. You know,
mania, hysteria, and the madness
of crowds.
-
Anyway, let me get discursive.
Carl Sagan, though born in old
Brooklyn  -  of the usual 'Jewish,
immigrant, small-shop' parents, 
moved as a youngster, and grew 
up and attended the local high
school : that would be Rahway,
NJ, and Rahway High School,
specifically. He grew up at 307,
I think it was, Bryant Street. A
nice, white house. Rahway was
then described as the 'typical'
example of a dying, industrial
town  -  it still had the rails, but
the manufacturing base was
gone. Coat factories, publishers,
chemicals, paints, machine shops,
etc., all of them had died off, or
were dwindling. Route One and
its truck traffic, a nearness to the
airports, and turnpike and access
to NYC were not enough to keep 
it prospering. It began floundering,
and its post WWII profile was
not well. Typical, as well, of most
of NJ's old, urban towns, blacks
and newly immigrated sub-classes
had the town, essentially, surrendered 
to them. The old housing stock
decayed, the moribund ethos of
standard dependency and government
welfares took over  -  assistance, 
relief, and old-urban decay ruled.
-
When you get to 'textbook' Civics
America, none of this stuff was ever
to have happened. Poor planning on
the part of the founders, that. I actually
don't think they ever planned for the
sorts of greed and rapacious pillage
by which the business enterprises,
once-established in the corridors of
old-America power. They didn't plan
for it because it was way outside of
their horizons, realizings, and their
imaginings back then. In any case,
such as it went Rahway was doomed.
But this Carl Sagan kid became the
stand-out Science-type genius of
the school. I won't go one, you can 
look it up yourselves if need be. By
our time of hanging out around 
Cornell, he was in place and
starting his roll.
-
The point I'm trying to get to, and
my reason for this diversion, is to
bring this chapter to the thematic of
of illogic of logic. I mean that, and
totally. If, as a person, one decides
to live 'logically'  -  with all the
deducements and conclusions that
'Science' brings (as often as not cold,
dumb, and stupid enough), Science
also demands that  - for proof of 
one's postulate  -  examples must  
be provided. So here I go.
-
I've never been a science type, nor
logical. I've always traveled the
artistic, creative, road, intuitive,
even iconoclastic. Devil ahead and
the rest be damned. Programs and
formulas have always bored the
hell of me like tits on a Greek
statue. I shoot, and then check
the aim. Maybe's that's reverse
logic, but it doesn't win you any
prizes. In that vein, I've spent
much of my intellectual life,
what there was of it, filtering
among the dross. Working among 
those who labor. None of that
ivory-tower bullshit for me; the
interior and legalistic problems,
and prospects, of academia, 
science, medicine, discovery,
practicality, usefulness and 
utility have never been my 
wont. I'd always have rathered
raping Lucretia than discussing
her finer points. (You can look 
that up too, if you're interested.
Type in 'The Rape of Lucretia').
-
Sagan left Rahway High School
 as their very own, first, modern
Science superstar. The emphasis
there is on STAR, for that's where
his main bent went  -  Astronomy.
Conjectural, planetary, cosmic. In
his book 'Broca's Brain' he goes on
and on, for pages, almost tediously,
debunking the cool Astro-concept
writers  -  Erich von Danikan, 
Emmanual Velikovsky, and others. 
To boredom  -  and with a certain
sense of righteousness that I find
unbecoming. He really disappointed
me as I read it (I've always been a
believer in all of that  -  the transit
of our Gods, the seeding of this
world, the senses of creation and
Humankind, extra-terrestrials, and
on and more. My favorite writer if\
that entire bunch is Zecariah Sitchin,
whom Sagan doesn't even get to;
maybe before his time then).
-
Anyhow, Sagan became a sort of
establishmentarian superstar, and
in his way 'bolstered' the academic
and organizational precepts of the
Authorized versions of everything.
Governmentally approved. Acquiesced
to by the Science and the Academic
industries, for whom he became a
leading spokesman. But, as I read
this now, all these years later, I see
his spunky superiority, nose-in-the-
air pose as terrible, horrid, and
even evil. He was a rational fool.
That's my stance. Here's my proof:
Pages 156 and 157, of 'Broca's 
Brain'. The chapter is called 'The
Sun's Family,' and it's fine as it
goes except that just before it
voraciously ripping the heart
out of all those written claims of
ancient astronauts, Biblical and
mythic references, space travel,
the pyramids, the Nazca Lines 
on Peru, and other evidences of
ancient, distantly ancient tools,
implements, and mechanical
evidences of advanced civilizations
once here. That's fine, Science 
can have its rational and logical
smugness and live with it. BUT
where even carl Sagan mis-steps
here  -  and which infuriates me  -
is when he then postulates, as his
proof, the following statement by
which he finally gets around to
admitting there are pyramids on 
Mars, yet then makes the asshole
claim that they were formed by
Martian surface winds! As follows:
"Mariner 9 observations imply that
the winds of Mars at least occasionally
exceed half the local speed of sound. 
Are the winds ever much larger? 
What is the nature of a transonic
meteorology? There are pyramids
on Mars...they are unlikely to have
been constructed by Martian pharaohs.
The rate of sandblasting by wind
transported grains on Mars is at
least 10,000 times that on Earth
because of the greater speeds
necessary to move particles in the
thinner Martian Atmosphere. Could
the facets of the Martian pyramids
have been eroded over millions of
years of such sandblasting from the
more than one prevailing wind
direction?"  --  So, Rahway Science
and Rahway Logic come to the fire
after all. Yes, prevailing winds, over
tens of thousands of (our) years (there's
no 'Time' on Mars, as we know it), can
make pyramidical, right-angle shapes
and points! Wonder of wonders, isn't
it, how the logic of the Scientific mind
can accept conclusions of its own 
making to reach its own ends! And
then boast about, and get haughty 
over.
-
Back in like 1974, when I was at
Elmira College, I had an ultra-logical,
prosaic Geology teacher. I asked him
once, after a class, as we lingered over
his 'coffee' (he never used coffee, but
only brewed Postum instead), what he
thought of Von Danikan. Worlds in
Collision, Ancient Astronauts, Chariots
of the Gods, and all that. He smugly
scoffed and said Van Danikan is a 
perfect example of a person who sets
out first, backwards of course, with
his conclusion in mind and then, in
order to make it work, writes the 
entire rest of the book selectively
presenting material to then fit the
conclusion, pre-ordained.' Obviously,
the man disliked Erich von Danikan. 
-
I call it Rahway Logic.










Saturday, September 25, 2021

18,842. CESSPOOLS OF SARSAPARILLA

CESSPOOLS OF 
SARSAPARILLA
Once lost with a cavity of
dereliction, the way out gets
tougher and more. Taxis line
up like flies on a sugar-stick,
airports running backwards
with planes flying to land.
-
Here's the big distinction:
Nothing comes back again,
and what you see is what 
you get. Whoever heard
of sarsaparilla anyway?

18,841. SOLOMON DOES HIS SLALOM! SHALOM!

SOLOMON DOES HIS 
SLALOM! SHALOM!
I built this Temple on wishes and now
it is destroyed. Like you, I was made
in the image of God and, like me,
this Temple stood guard. No, there
is nothing but sand. Vapid people
wander by, seeking less loss in
a new-sounding fire. And I
can no long build.

Friday, September 24, 2021

18,839. IN THE FONTANA DRESSING ROOM

IN THE FONTANA 
DRESSING ROOM
Statuary of some fantastic ceramic,
half-moons from China, am etching
by Decauter of the 'Lunar Surface.'
What did I know? It felt like the
basement exhibits at the Princeton
University Art Museum  -  all that
crazy, distant stuff unearthed.
-
No one takes the blame, nor matches
the inclination; a tendency for taking
credit where nothing much is due?
They used to let people smoke in
here. Can you imagine that?
-
Those ancient guys who worked
stone with metal, or metal with stone,
I wonder how they talked and what
they said. Did they communicate 
with each other side by side at
five-feet-two? Did one say, 'I
know what the Gods want,' and
other just agree by grunting,
and work along?

Thursday, September 23, 2021

18,838. TRALALA

TRALALA
Where do you put things when
you're done? How high are the
piles of nothing. What falls
when something falls over?
-
We are the singsong children
brought up in your leather of
lair. Kept for the future like
posterity's heir?
-
Maypole of Merriment, and
Nathaniel Hawthorne too. All
that we climbed is all we that
we knew. Roundheads and 
Puritans. America to the fore.

13,837. WORDS NO SONG, MELODY NO WORDS

WORDS NO SONG, 
MELODY NO WORDS
Open this doorway to skid row; I think 
I'll take a walk in. And end up where the
mavericks die and the wild plains Indians
were slaughtered once and for all. Down
in the southwest, Arizona wasn't a state 
until 1912. Until that time their pride
they held.
-
Arrows in the kitchen now mean Aunt
Jemima's gone as well. She left on the
morning train to Hell.
-
One sort of judgement coaxes my
desire  - a simple determination not
to keep things square. All those lefty
dominant hipsters, tripping over 
themselves sliding in their slime, 
can't quite bring forth their sense
of justice to any admonition that
calls them out.
-
Ogden, Utah, you say? Portland,
Oregon?  Up theirs all : lily-livered
creature comforts of the San Francisco
slums : gay boys emoting, farty girls in
butch cuts and their denim jeans.
-
Arrows in the kitchen now mean Aunt
Jemima's gone as well. They threw
her on that train to Hell.

13,836. TREADLE MY MEANDERS SLOWLY

TREADLE MY 
MEANDERS SLOWLY
In the library of Carstair Hills, I saw
what I wanted to see. Three girls were
sitting across from me, and I was maybe
18 again! They used to call me a sweet
old guy; now it's a dirty old man? One
Humbert Humbert, that's me, all over
again? I want to treadle my cream on
your bagel. The librarian said 'Shush!'
-
I'd never even actually heard that
word before, only read in Tom Sawyer.
Becky Thatcher and a bunch of those
kids trying to get her where they wanted.
Shush holds hush, so it's easy to get,
every for some Mark Twain brat.
-
Everything is so different these days:
Twain said now that Jim would be
totally different, and Becky'd be
probably knocked up. 'How in the
tarnation', he said, 'are we supposed
to figure anything out now? Up is
down  -   so professed anyway  -   
but I still can't write what I was
meaning to say.' I told him to just
give it up, and it ain't worth trying.
-
And then I said, 'Hey, Sam, have
you ever heard of Zane Grey? He's
like Bret Harte was, but about
different things. Did you know 
his first name was really 'Pearl?'

13,835. HIGH DRIVE TO LITTLETON

HIGH DRIVE TO LITTLETON
There was no blessing in the
speed, no sense in driving fast.
All the buzzing lights were 
overhead; like noise they
flashed. Ohio cops headed
to Akron again?
-
These highway roads make
me bleary. Three or four lanes
of nothing at all  -  dead farms
replaced by industrial stock 
and warehouses where trucks 
now feed instead of cows.
-
That which doesn't kill me 
makes me stronger? Who 
once said that never said it 
to one of those cows now
gone. Nor had it moo'd
back to them.
-
I stay against the divider,
fastest lane I can find. 82mph
where it tells me 65? Just a
number on a wanton wall, 
that's all. Antioch and Ohio
State  -  college tramps on
treks of their own.
-
I can hear America singing?

Wednesday, September 22, 2021

13,834. THE SUMMONING OF BITS & PIECES

THE SUMMONING 
OF BITS & PIECES
Attend to me with the Oxford don. I need
to speak with him about so many things.
-
William the Conqueror versus King Harold?
How did that go again and where did those
northern Vikings come in?
-
How to fight a good fight? What was
learned by standing fast? If I can put
these questions properly (and not sound
like an ass), what did all these men eat
as they waited those weeks for battle?
-
Foraging an already pillaged landscape?
Gouging men eyes (foretelling poor Harold),
raping the women and girls, killing the
livestock for miles around? That's all
I've found for these queries.
-
Where was Tostig, and where kept the
other foe, Harald Hardrada? I take my
history with a spoon, Hastings Pudding
as it were. I'd like to go back in time.

Tuesday, September 21, 2021

13,833. MIRACULUS DEUS OMNIVORUS

MIRACULOUS DEUS OMNIVORUS
You won't be exiting in that same costume
you've got on now  -  the lines have changed
and even the ending of this play may now 
vary. Cows may still come wandering home,
but that's about it and no one really does
farming any more. 
-
Fence-lines of barbed wire are like the 
old sentences of florid speakers; words in 
a long row, maybe barbed here and there, 
but running on forever too. Abe Lincoln had 
his abracadabra Gettysburg moment, but
he knew how to cut it short.
-
For me, there's no declaration like a bold
declaration : the sun is not yellow, it's chicken?
However that may be, those small words can
linger on : in the ghostbooks of college seniors
who gag on their supper spoons.
-
When this God, this time, next moment,
comes down from Heaven in whatever way,
past that point it will all be anti-climax,
and boredom will have its say.

Monday, September 20, 2021

13,832. SOMETIMES A LITTLE FOR NOTHING

SOMETIMES A LITTLE 
FOR NOTHING
I admit, nothing is much getting done
around here. I'm too idle for my own
good, and all the fires are burning down.
As they say in the liposuction ward, 
'that sucks.' And I can't add any more.
-
What has happened to me, really? The
last doors in the room stopped working,
and the only light let in this window is
a grimy and soiled one. I'm neither in
nor out, but stuck in both. Paradoxical.
-
Back in the barn, the wall in the back
has an old bison skull hanging. Where
or why is beyond me. It doesn't talk;
and I've tried. I'd sought to hear some
sort of story from it about its days of
old. Not forthcoming. Silent. Cold.
-
How can I mix and match a fashion
I don't even know of? Where do I go
with this one notion? What's better
than this just sitting around. All my
stories grow stale, my memories are
strangers to this modern day. I take
my rest, to fade away?
-
Sometimes a little for nothing
is even too much to say.

13,831. BUY ME A FEW BERNINI COLUMNS

BUY ME A FEW 
BERNINI COLUMNS
Not for nothing, but where did you
buy that shirt with the nice bumps
in it? I sought one far and wide for
my future ex-wife when I had her.
Now all else is drained except for
longing, and I've turned cross and
old. When I was a kid my parents
would let me stay up, on Christmas
Eve, to watch the Pope's mass at
midnight, on TV. St. Peter's Basilica,
or whatever those crazy Romans
called that religious edifice. All
those twisted columns, architecture
by Bernini. I couldn't have cared
less about the groveling Pope, but
the building always knocked me 
out. One year I remember I took
all the booze in my father's cabinet  -
normally reserved for Christmas
and New Year's parties anyway - 
and I mixed them all together, all
night. Everyone else was busy 
eating and chomping away. By
11pm, I was shot-to-hell in a
cannon. Even the Pope at his
Midnight Mass looked like 
liquid to me. And the those
Bernini columns began to
dance; moving about like
myriad angels on the
heads of their pins!

Sunday, September 19, 2021

13,830. OF TEDIOUS MIND

OF TEDIOUS MIND
Oh fetch me the goal post,
for I truly want to move it.
I am tired of the regular array.
Far out, that distant tree-line
beckons.
-
More distant than a sweat in
the freezing cold of Winter,
I see the trees themselves
are moving : Burnam Woods
to Dunsinane, again?
-
How many must recline in
death on that littered field?
A plane of slaughter, some
more stupid war?

Saturday, September 18, 2021

13,829. HARGROVE

HARGROVE
Moss doesn't really grow only on
the north side of trees. It's more 
to do with moisture and light, but 
that  gets forgotten in the telling. 
And it really doesn't matter  -  any
woodsman or pioneer would have 
already known what direction he 
wanted. God's compass is built 
into  each of our heads.
-
I still marvel at audacity and
the boldness that makes a man
shine. Not that it's all good, but
merely that it exists. People who
chase only money, they get charged
double in the end - the mind magnifies
that which it least respects.
-
Changeable kingdoms, and the
fiefdoms of good and evil. I'll 
play cards with the Devil , yes,
but you'd better way-up the odds
before I start. No limits to my
self-persuasion.



13,828. MARVELOUS THE MANNER

MARVELOUS THE MANNER
So you are saying this life is a whisper,
the small noise a carillon makes out
of adjustment. The earthquakes and
the landscapes that fail; the tsunami
that subsumes what it entails?
-
How can one lock the effervescence
of living away? Like a sulking child
or a brooding stray, hiding in corners
or running away? I think not, and 
I'll keep my own freedom in my 
own free way.

13,827. FEIGNING USELESSNESS

FEIGNING USELESSNESS
I can make it stick; every fiction
I know carries some of reality too.
Darn this apple tree, and it takes
so long.
-
Leave me to my oasis, I suppose. 
Here where the silly birds slight
each other over seeds and waters?
How far is the distance to land?

13,826. HARMONY COMING IN...

HARMONY COMING IN
HARMONY GOING OUT
In my days of old I played lots
of roles; now the fire's gone and 
I've grown cold. I was once a
Keystone Cop. I was once a
Katzenjammer Kid. I was never
fickle in the things I did, but
all of life changes before too
long. I remember the melody,
but I forget the song.

Friday, September 17, 2021

13,825. RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,214

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,214
(transistor radios)
The funny thing was, about the
Twin Towers, or the World Trade
Center as it was more officially
known, was how much I really
disliked them. In the beginning.
When they first went up, I detested
what looked to me like two
transistor radios jutting into the
sky. For you modern cats, that's
a throwback reference to the days
when Emerson and GE actually
made, wonder of wonders! hand
held radios for personal use. In
their days they were quite amazing,
and it all started about 1958. At
first, as the 'technology' of the
new 'transistor' developed, the
race was on for more and more
'transistor' in the radio; at first
6, then maybe 8, and as I recall,
by 1960 or so, 12 transistors.
I never rightly knew what was
going on with all that, nor what
a transistor even was   -  opposed
to a 'resistor', I figured  -  but the
more you had, the more the little
radio could pull in. It was as if
even this 'new' thing had to be 
entered into the then-current 
rat-race of more and bigger and 
larger, all. It was funny too, since,
as the cars got longer and wider,
with fins and swoops and chrome 
and all, so as to sort of represent
symbolic power, when I saw the
actual space capsules and stuff of
the Mercury rockets and John
Glenn and the space-shots I was
staggered by how, as of a sudden
they had been made to look like,
instead, toasters, stunted erasers,
or the silliest, most blunt-looking,
utility boxes winging in space.
So much for glitz and glamor, and
in the same manner the Twin Towers,
when finally completed, represented
nothing but expediency and an act
of 'efficiency' which brought forth
the most banal, neutral and generic
looking, vertical blocks; to make it
worse, twinned! America sure knew
how to pocket the 8-ball.
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Walter Benjamin had it that 'all
paths lead to the present, and the
future leads there too.' I guess
that was sure truthful.
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The hand-held transistor radio
for me, walking along Inman 
Avenue, vivified life as I knew 
it. Allowing me to walk down
Inman Avenue, where my 'home'
was, at #116, in a miserable row
of exact-pattern lookalike sand
castles, to be accompanied by
Ben E. King singing 'There is a
rose in Spanish Harlem...' Damn
it all, thought I, there really are
other places.
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Anyway, moving along, the Twin
Towers represented to high-point
of that 1970's time, upon completion,
of flat planes, right angles, stern
visage, no windows, and people
otherwise ventilated and entombed
by 'technology,' though, then, of
the architectural operation. Complete
and utter rationality embodied in
steel and glass. Little did anyone 
know what was to come. I wasn't
much interested and, at first, as I
said, really disliked them.
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What happened over time, especially
at right about the turn of the century
to 2000, was that I had really grown
to love them. They stood for so much
of NY for me, whether good or bad.
They were useful as refence points,
visually, to one's position on the
island, or across from it, to the
outlying places of Brooklyn, or
New Jersey. I knew the sightlines,
from uptown or across town, and
was quickly able to determine
things from where I knew the 
towers were; which streets opened
to their straight view, which were
angled, etc. I'd often sit at the
tiny outside-drinking balcony of
the Nancy Whiskey Pub and just
stare them down (a great vantage 
point there).
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Conceptually, it was all a different
matter. What had happened, actually,
was that, through the 1960's and with
only a modicum of consideration and
'public' permission, Authority itself,
(NY Urban Development, the folks
at Port Authority, to name but two)  -
each seeking to increase their local
fiefdoms and commands, desensitize
neighborhoods to anything but greed,
profit, and commercial venture, and
the public be damned, took over the
lands, properties, and storefront small
businesses of an entire Lebanese and
Middle Eastern district of shops ,
grocers, and small stores. It had, until
then, been referred to as the electronics
district  -  since many of the shops
and workmen of the area were of the
repair-skills for small appliances,
TV's and radios, wiring, short wave,
buzzers, relays, buttons and (probably)
transistors too. They were unceremoniously
shut down, and the people moved out -
sent scurrying, in fact. I don't know to
where they were exiled, but like the
Lincoln Center district, at about the
same time, where the same thing had
been done to Puerto Ricans, I'd imagine
it was out to those gruesome apartment
and plaza projects like Starrett City, or
out to Flushing or Queens. There's an
entire book on this Trade Center
relocation and demolition, by Danny
Lyon, entitled 'The Destruction of
Lower Manhattan.'  -  a fascinating
read and photo book showing the
derelict district, the ruins and the
demolitions and the raw vacancies
of the area. Over what amounted to
maybe 5 years, the clearance and
land preparation for the massive
excavations of the towers got
underway  -  almost surreptitiously,
without big announcement and/or
publicity, an entire section of
lower Manhattan was removed.
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By the time the towers were 
destroyed, I had grown fond of 
them and at that peculiar time
I'd frequented and gotten myself
used to, even, the concourse and
shopping mezzanine, outlandishly,
since it was like nothing other than
a suburban mall, a commercial
chatter-space serving the thousands
who worked there daily. Food,
clothing. Ties, belts, shoes, hats,
leathers, watches and jewelry,
books and expensive collectibles,
rare-items, antiques. It was, in
its respect, pure commerce. Above
it, in a myriad of offices and
corridors, there was, for a time,
nothing so much as a great vacancy.
So much so that, at first, around 
1974, in order to keep the
enterprise solvent, the State of
New York itself became the 
largest tenant; offices, boards,
bureaus and commission and 
agencies too  -  let alone what
was moved there from Albany.
The place was, at first, a real
losing proposition.
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Frankly, I was never sure what
to make of it. Ornament had
always been a part of architecture
on older NYC buildings  -  that 
is why we note them and 
remember them and why that
old style of 1880's grand and
stately architecture represented.
This, however was something
new, past even the steel and glass
modernism of Lever House and
the midtown ship/shape glass
and glitter buildings. The Twin
Towers were simply plain and
raw and brutish, sort of just as
they crumbled died too. The
commercial concourse within
represented nothing more than
commodity culture, internalized,
taken is and denied the street.
The business of the buildings,
in their aspects, wasn't in fact
'commerce' at all; nor was it
trade. Plain and simple, it was
mass-bureaucracy; it was the
buying and selling, and the 
transporting of, great quantities
of everything, ('Trade, Global')
by way of clerks, trackers, typists,
accountants, and shipping and
receiving management in huge
numbers. Or Governmental-force
bureaucracy  -  a brutal, plain,
force in its own way. These towers
probably deserved to die, sad to
say. The least likely suspects did
it too  -  crazed, desert, nomads,
little different than the crazed,
desert American everywhere
doing the selfsame stuff just in
the habit and rubric of another
ideology. Supposedly. Mammon.
Allah. Yahweh. Pick it.
It's funny to realize that the first
attempt at taking the towers down
was a failure. It was 1986 or so
when some other Islamic cleric
masterminded a van laden with
heavy explosives to breach the 
underground gates for parking
and explode beneath a tower,
which did occur, and took out
a large area and many vehicles,
etc., but nothing enough to
dissemble one tower, let alone
two. Same sort of terror-thought.
The blind cleric was tried and
sent away for many years, vowing
that the 'next attempt would NOT
fail.' (I don't know whatever
happened to him, I think he's 
dead by now; but I know he was
imprisoned for a long time). It
was that first attempt destruction
that put up the vehicle-barriers,
gate-barricades, and no-parking
areas which were in place after
that. in any case, by 2001, that
problem too had been superseded,
in this case, by air travel. When
those towers came down, a great
part of whatever new-soul New
York was supposed to have been
getting, or building, went down
with it.