3925. TEPID REMARKS

TEPID REMARKS
When silence was in order, I spoke.
When company was needed, I left
you alone. As nightfall arrived, I
arose, and when daylight broke,
only then I slept. When water ran,
I was not thirsty; when storm clouds
thundered with rain, I had no shelter.
When lightning struck, I saw the world
as dark. When it was cold, I had warmth,

and when it was hot, I froze.
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These are the dissemblings of a madman;
a monster turned heretic, a doyen of death.
If I turn on you quickly, it is because of
the knife in my hand. If I whisper, slowly,
it is so as to make my noise.
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When you were empty, I was filled.
When you were barren, I was rich.
Whenever you won, I lost. When
you grew happy, I floundered in both
sadness and sorrow. I do not know
the endings of these things - only
do I speak to clouds and sky. If you
are of God, show me. If you are
nothing, then go away.
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I seek the energy of the birds and
the seas. I am dead tired with trying.