3361. HOW CAN I SAY THIS : HOW CAN I NOT?

HOW CAN I SAY THIS : 

HOW CAN I NOT?

(this still-life holds a table)

I am supposed to have kept you -  

catalogued and noted and punched -

to remain in my notebook. This will never

be. Expansive to a fault, remnants and ideas, 

parts and places, they burst their bounds and

announce me out. Had I but the notion to

remain, (so off-putting, this being in place),

I would have done so. As it is, alas, without

you I go; but you are free, and - yes - that

is all we can be and, yes, all this can remain 

and you can go, or stay, as your whim will

dictate. (We then are all free beings to 

choose who or what to engage. By this

measure, so many engagements are enacted).

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This still-life holds a table : 'It's anyway, like,

away from New York, you know, and we

have to pull all this together for her by

Saturday morning.' How can I say this:

how can I not?