Thursday, June 30, 2022

14,391. BLACK AND BLUE LINING AT THE HEADHUNTERS' CAFE

BLACK AND BLUE LINING 
AT THE HEADHUNTERS' CAFE
Here's the borderland and the 
wonderland too. Bullshit forever 
is free. I have found no meaning
any longer in space : cry, cry, 
the whippoorwill says.
-
Let's watch the girls line up
at the window; this club takes
and all in. They pull up in black
promenade cars, settle out, get
drunk and tip the driver. Twice.
-
Ninety-nine battles of queers on 
the wall. Take one down and pass 
it around. Ninety-eight battles of
queers on the wall. All the rest?
Pure Goldschlager to you.

Wednesday, June 29, 2022

14,390. HOW YOU ARE ANOTHER MATTER ENTIRELY

HOW YOU ARE ANOTHER 
MATTER ENTIRELY
On 14th street, and then 21st street, you can
still catch a bus to Nowhere. That always
amazes me. With a Starbucks every thirty
feet you'd think, firstly, that no one would
ever be lost, and secondly, that no one
would ever wish to leave. Those city
folks keep their quirky ways and call
others to task for not doing so. I can
never figure out the pounding of good
leather shoes on a weak framework of
concrete like that  -  wherein everything
old is constantly getting gobbled up, yet
the stupid city tries to go on living on its
legacy and history, frightfully destroyed.
Were King Arthur to have built a new
castle every thirty days, would he still be
as revered? Here, we tear down our breath
before the breathing's even started.
Old guys clomping off the bus with their
teeth barely intact. Lame women with
gauze on their feet trundling dirty plastic
bags filled with shoes to the butcher and
the baker  -  who have long ago closed
shop. Everything now is part of something
larger. Not a solitary inch to be had. Yet,
the busses keep coming, dipping their
handicapped fronts so the lame, or the
speedy, can get on or get off. Person to
person? Not really. All you are is
another matter entirely.

14,389. RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,280

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,280
(a history of joyful gamesmanship)
Back in Colonia, I had a friend,
Frank, who had a brother, about
8 years younger (we were 28
then) in a band  -  one of those
half-ever-active local bands
that played the endless and
foul successions of local
clubs and venues; Jersey 
Shore, Elizabeth, etc. The
usual stage-band circuit.
It was (the band) called
'Flossie.' I never knew any
story behind the name. Sort
of an early hard-rock, heavy
metal nascent sound, along
the then contemporary 'new'
bands of that ilk, and best 
exemplified by the first
generation of Van Halen, for
comparison  -  a mix of the
theatric, the flashy, and the
musical (loud and driving).
It never did much for me, 
but it pushed me along into 
a certain groove of staying
away. All that they ever did,
I was never interested in at all.
-
That was always a certain
aspect of street culture, or
the colloquial, that I despised.
I made sure it wouldn't matter
either way  -  even in the seminary
there were guys with guitars
and secular music tastes who
could make the joint rock, as
out of context as it was. My
friend there, Mike Bartholomew,
had this little band that called
itself 'Laissez Faire'  -  which
means, like, 'Hands Off' in
French, and it's an Adam Smith
reference too  -  Economics and
Finance theory. They could take,
and did, most any jingle or TV
ad or theme and somehow put
it into a rock n' roll format  -  
mostly by the simple tactics of
tempo, pounding three-chord
transformation, and volume.
(The thing was, obviously, in the
seminary there wasn't that much
a band like that could sing about  -
sex and romance and women and
love pretty much being out of the
picture, unless you knew maybe
how to encode the idea of other
men into it instead. Thus, jingles.
But it was fun. Seven long years
before Jimi Hendrix batted the
National Anthem over the head
at Woodstock, they had done the
same already to theme songs and
ad ditties like Cap'n Crunch, and
Choo Choo Charlie. Years later,
at Princeton, there was a famous
poet, one Paul Muldoon, who 
did the same with his cranky 
little band, named 'Racket'  -  
but at least his crafted words 
were witty and game-ful.
-
Funny as it went, this same Mike
Bartholomew (a few years older
than me) was my introduction
to Jazz. He had the likes of most
everything from John Coltrane and
Miles Davis, to Coleman Hawkins,
Thelonius Monk, and all the others.
Through him, I cut my own music
teeth on the rudiments of jazz  -  
its history, thematics, riffs and 
tempos. The crazy drum breaks, 
and the more sedated versions 
of same as well, in cuts like 'Take
Five' by Dave Brubeck. These
are just a few examples. The idea
of all this  -  to me  -  was purity.
A musical purity without the
fussiness of classical music, 
which was (and is) essentially 
an affectation of the wealthy.
In my opinion. I was a poor
boy, down from some gutter
town in North Jersey, in a
Southern-accented deep
South-Jersey Pines area
seminary, and though we had
a few rich kids, Governor's
sons and important people's
offspring, none of that ever
came my way. All the affected
ways of men and money, family
and riches, meant nothing to me,
and that included classical music.
Later, yes, I did obtain a nice
taste for it, learning its superstars
and legacy names and musics,
(in order to do that, and proving
my case, were the effete snobs
from whom one had to listen and
learn from to do so. That still
goes on; listen to the creeps on
the air on WQXR, in NYC. I'd
sometimes like to punch Jeff
Spurgeon in the head for his
fakery), but still to me the core
essence of crazy-life and being 
was to be found in Jazz, as I 
learned it. Jazz had always had
a dark undercurrent of race. In
1962, the climate of the nation
was such that 'Negroes' in all
other aspects other than their
'music' were problematical. It
used to be called 'Race Music.'
Not speedway stuff, but slaves, 
negroes, spirituals, and 'blues'
(which, again, was merely the
crying plaint of slaves and
slavery, a blight to which
America never owned up or
admitted too, just like the
slaughter and decimation of
the Native Americans whose
lands were stolen and their
millions of Bison killed to
force them into starvation, 
moving on, and death). So, 
salad days or seminary days
both looked the same to me:
A private, long-years', gathering
place for personal space and 
learning of and from which
I took every advantage possible
for me to take, and it still wasn't
enough. The fuzziness of imposed
religion kept getting in the way.
-
Jazz then became for me a rear
doorway  -  out. Opening on
way. Secretive and stealthy. I
needed nothing else. A Jazz lead,
of course, then and now, will
take you nowhere else except
right through the cross-currents
of the real and the most dire
parts of older American culture:
The Beats, Abstract-Expressionst
art, counter-cultural undercurrents,
Existentialism, poetry, and lots
more. It's all unavoidable.
-
And then, one day, after all
that, Jazz itself was found to have
reached its own dead-end. I noticed
it first about 1974, I suppose  -  by
then any jazz heard was run down,
static, uneventful, making excuses
for itself, trending mainstream,
and hardly Jazz at all. It just
seemed to have lost impetus,
to have gone on without direction
or meaning, fused itself with too
many other things, and had younger
musicians coming up who were
more culture-set performers that
anything else. It became more a
history of joyful gamesmanship
rather then the punch in the gut
and face it had always meant to 
be. I think the passing of old Jazz
is best exemplified by (take a listen)
a Coleman Hawkins piece titled
'Under a Blanket of Blue' on the
album 'The Hawk Relaxes.' It
spits and starts and stops, but can
never find its life or the energy
needed to go or to get anywhere.
Of course, any of that is taste, and
that taste is my own opinion. A
piece of music that gets lost in
itself (and I'm not sure Under a
Blanket of Blue is the most apt
example, but I couldn't find one
at the moment) ends up bereft,
going nowhere. To upend this
entire apple cart, and take it to
the extreme  -  anything by Charlie
Parker seems to me to be lost,
nervous, childish and so much
headed towards nowheresville that
it's long gone. Yet, all that stuff
is revered as much today as ever
it was before.






14,388. TEDIOUS AND TERRIBLE

TEDIOUS AND TERRIBLE
I watched another sunrise, with
my eyes closed  -  a tedious and
terrible task. Sitting back in an
old, cranky, chair, with my face
being washed by the damp morning
air. It seemed as cold as ice, though 
it was actually very nice. A few
million morning birds made their
usual chatter, so it seemed.
Nothing was the matter.
-
Then I remembered the place and
the task, and the problems, at last.
Once again I awoke to the matters:
tedious and terrible things. Leaving
too much, as it were, in tatters.

14,387. A HORRIBLE, CRUNCHING SOUND

A HORRIBLE, CRUNCHING SOUND
Somehow, within the reaches of a
fabulatory dreamtime, that was me
hitting the ground. Why? I do not
know. How, neither. If it was a jump,
how could I jump from a place as
low as this? Certainly no precipice.

Tuesday, June 28, 2022

14,386. MELACHTHON HAD THE BEST MELATONIN

MELACHTHNON HAD 
THE BEST MELATONIN
Well and whatever. Martin Luther 
was the King of Diamonds, and 
Melachthnon was his heir apparent.
Or so I was told, I think. Information
like that doesn't much stick; far too
technical and unsatisfying to me.
-
I stood in a classroom ten feet tall.
The chairs were made of 'vermiculite.'
I never knew what that was either.
Like Diatomaceous Earth, a glandular
mystery forever to me.

14,385. MAULING THE FIRE STATION

MAULING THE FIRE STATION
See that this happens, happenstance;
I stand by the window just watching.
The lights are bright, as well they
might be : cars, travelers, vacationers,
and vacillators. Too. Everyone aligns
themselves with the starry bright.
-
Hey! I haven't worn a coat in two
months, and that's a real switch. It's
June, and I'm still wearing my boots?
The fireman waltzes by, and he wears
what I never have : that tan-heavy
fireman's coat, and boots, the sort of
outfit they fight fires with. Actually
against. But you get the gist.

Monday, June 27, 2022

14,384. THIS WORLD IS LIKE ANOTHER LANGUAGE

THIS WORLD IS LIKE 
ANOTHER LANGUAGE
And I can't speak a word, nor understand
the qualifications of whatever definition
of what the words are supposed to have.
I'm lost in a forest fire, fleeing flames
fleeter than me.
-
If I knew what to say, maybe I'd say it;
composing definitions and phrases that 
click, wondrous sub-clauses with dashes
and parentheses too. As it goes, alas, along
its way my own stupid tongue is tied and 
silent. I can't move a thing, nor lift a finger 
to rearrange the situation.
-
If there's a fire on the moon, I'll take 
it. Boasting of flames in a place where 
there's no oxygen at all.

Sunday, June 26, 2022

14,383. MONTRAZET AND CARAZOU

MONTRAZET AND CARAZOU
I don't know where any of this has come 
from. My aim has been pretty good, and I
always thought my shots killed the enemy. 
Now, the avenger arises. I'm sunk.
-
Here's the medallion that lets me in. You
can have it; I'm tired of all that stuff. My
mind now is lethal, I'm up to no good, I'm
savage and aimless and acting not good.
-
I'm joining Montrazet, and Carazou too.
Outlaw criminals - that's all that they do.

Saturday, June 25, 2022

14,382. OLD MAN

 OLD MAN
Circumstance and want and age
regroup around us and about, to
stage the odd rekindling of our
hearts - and make our minds
subservient. (The master is the
slave, the slave the master).
-
So turns the matter  -  we are
in our domain, or that domain
is in us. No one knows the
answer, yet we renege.
-
Circumstance and want and 
age distort; our memory into 
an instant visage freezes. We 
retell a liar's tale expanded or 
determined by its ending and 
how it will be told. Knowledge
know no end, and truth is gold.
-
Our age, then, gold! We cannot
bother over guilt or guile or
innocence either. The old man
gathers string and, talking to
himself, relives his war or
wedding day or fling : Main
actions ruled by him who was so
vast, back in his day. Whatever
that year, let it stay what it may.
-
Circumstance and want and age
revenge upon us  -  babbling like
an idiot until silent as a corpse.
We bleed our lives, blood empty,
and disperse out little force upon
the sheets. And then, alas, like 
a Winter of dread ramming a
Summer of joy, it is over.
-
Neither Lenten lists nor our
abstentions can redeem us ,
(wood and trunk and anvil and
gruel). Native, be no villain,
neither be no fool.
-
Age and age and age detract.
Our powdered head disperses 
into flakes. Our age and age 
and age pulls thin, gets taut,
then breaks. The old man? He
gathers string, and mutters on.

14,381. HEEDING THE CALL

HEEDING THE CALL
It is said that we are flesh and
blood, and I suppose then we 
are. But, to my mind, spirit 
comes first and predominates.
We are nothing but that.
-
Contemplate the farthest reaches
of where you may have gone: 
How thoughts and miraculous 
moments are manifested  - where
ideas go, how objects are changed.
Even the settings of our mental
hearts are not fixed settings.
-
I sit at a table, here, playing with
matches. As of old, when there
used to be an ashtray on every
table. The cafe thoughts carry
the onus, but the present day
always wins out in the end.

14,380. PRAYING THE LIGHTS OUT, AGAIN

PRAYING THE LIGHT OUTS, AGAIN
I was born in the rain, fully clothed.
My mother said I was quite a surprise,
and not only to her alone. Now that
part's over. I return sprinkling red
pepper on my face. Mostly I'm too
tired to care if it burns.
-
There's no chemistry in the chemistry
lab, and they no longer put joy in the
Almond Joys. Seems as if the whole
world'S somehow shifted. I meddle
with anything I can, but still wake
up freezing. Or maybe that's better
said as screaming. Yes! I still wake
up screaming.

Friday, June 24, 2022

14379. HEEDING LITTLE, HALTING ALL

HEEDING LITTLE, 
HALTING ALL
The ravishment of a moment is 
a simple call, and we can never
go home with that which we came.
An empty heart is an empty mind.
Let us take it all, and keep what we
find, before the moment runs out.

Thursday, June 23, 2022

14,378. OF LATE

OF LATE
Of late my life's been turned
upside down, and it ain't over
yet. The backyard school of 
the Yeti's is still throwing me
lessons to learn. They're already
dirgeful and I want no more.
Death is a Kingship over a 
lousy kingdom : The paths 
are all wanton and there's
no reach in site. Nothing
leads anywhere except
Heavenward, one hopes,
and I'm losing my fight.

Tuesday, June 21, 2022

14,377. TURNED-IN

 TURNED-IN
As an opposite, with no
disregard for motive but plenty
of motive to disregard, I enter
the realm of felicity. Sometimes
living is no living at all.
-
I can notice - or want to - when
the workmen come, and the 
painters and the bakers and the 
clerks. They each enter these 
buildings for work.
-
Some with hands held high 
in greetings, they seem mostly 
to all know each other. Repeated 
undertakings and daily meetings;
ships passing in the daylight hours. 
Any hurry seems to hurt, as they 
enter, steady, and in concert  - not
as one but as many between them.
-
Tedium along the concourse,
but with a rumble and a din.



Monday, June 20, 2022

14,376. MARIO WALDERPLUS

MARIO WALDERPLUS
Wait here while I disappear,
I'm sorry for ever having lived.
Wayward reasoning got me nil.
The end is always near.
-
So many things have managed
to happen, in the time its takes
for nothing at all. How do we
survive all that? Read this like
a catalogue of remnants from
a store that never opened.

Sunday, June 19, 2022

14,375. HOW WELL WE REVISE

HOW WELL WE REVISE
A birdseed wiseguy listens to
a birdseed lullaby. And it's all
a revisionist lie. Oh me, oh my!
-
The most simple revisionism can 
be the worst, and the most very
effective as well  -  since it works
by feeing on the brains of the low.
Once even The Beach Boys were
used as a working tool : Thirty
years ago they were presented
as a beleaguered group of boys
tormented by a driven dad intent 
on forcing them into their musical
stardom. Now that's all forgotten.
-
That Father is long gone now, and
the revised version has genius son
Brian Wilson, winging it, slightly
crazed, past all that Smiley Smile
bullcrap and into Good Vibrations.
Which is probably about a dildo,
we'll be told in another ten years.
-
The story's been changed three times
over, and all to make the point. The
point, however is of pointlessness
itself. That all bring our ends anyway.
How well we revise what we first
learn to say.
-
A birdseed wiseguy listens to
a birdseed lullaby. And it's all
a revisionist lie. Oh me, oh my!

14,375. I'M TIRED OF SLIME TOO

I'M TIRED OF SLIME TOO
So then, the aim of a gun is to
shoot straight? But do guns really
have aims, or just handlers? I'd
think I'd want to know  -  if I
really cared; but I don't.
-
I'm tired of it, all. I'm tired
of the twist everything is given:
swirl on a stick, new ice-cream
with a drip. I'm tired of trans-gender,
and large people, screeching their
new mentality, usurping a country
now already long gone.
-
In all indefensible to me, even if
you come forth to defend it and
show I'm wrong. I'm not wrong, 
I'm just tired  -  of having to bend 
to the sleaze that I see. That ain't 
me. I'm tired of all that I see.
-
Put up a fence at all borders, yes.
Put up a fence at the Mississippi
too, and the Rio Grand and the
Hudson and the Yazoo. Fence
them all in, not out. That'll do.


14,374. ALL THE BARRIERS IN THE WORLD

ALL THE BARRIERS 
IN THE WORLD
It got too late. For anything great.
And time was running out. There
was a man telling me that the
messages are coming through, 
but if I stopped grabbing them 
and using what was sent they'd 
be sure to cease. I did not want 
that. I stood up to better hear? 
I'd just found out that another 
friend had died. In Parkersburg, 
West Virginia. And I was sad. 
She was from a long time back, 
and far younger than me. It's 
everywhere now, this dread, and
maybe I can't go on. Maybe I shan't.
-
The stain of living just seems to keep
spreading. Nothing to do to stop it; all
the barriers in the world do no good.
-
The stars are high atop me, but they're 
also far below me. This cosmic sky I
walk through is high and low, together.
Above and beyond. Here and there.
Lost and found. Everything wrapped
together, and now Susan Sheppard
knows that too!



Saturday, June 18, 2022

14,373. WAITING IN SUPPOSITION

WAITING IN SUPPOSITION
I've learned to be mis-aligned,
and can get along quite well.
This limp you keep seeing?
It's just a manner of pain, my
hurt, something that pings un
the inner reaches of a soul I
long ago probably lost.

14,372. THE SECOND BASEMENT

THE SECOND BASEMENT
The supposition is that we go
deep  -  too deep to see, too deep
to navigate through the darkness
before us. Like some old Tittenhurst
Mansion on a London backstreet,
we get huddled in fog and density.
The old coal of a thousand airs is
stretched out before us but close
by darkness too. Our conclusions
within this cauldron take us to 
nowhere at all. 

Friday, June 17, 2022

14,371. RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,279

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,279
(the babe with the bleeding heart)
The wife was telling her husband,
'You're always pushing me around
and talking behind my back.' It
sounded like trouble, but they
were just out of sight, around 
the corridor, so I didn't know.
Then I heard the husband say,
in reply, 'What do you expect,
you're in a wheelchair.' That
solved that, and it was funny.
-
I have always had two sides to
myself - one, embittered, and
the other always ready for a
quick quip or pun or laughter.
I've been told it's psychological,
one of the deep quandaries by
which people defensively enclose
themselves, seeking safety from
the rush-on of others. That's
probably true, or I can feel 
that in any case. I don't like
interpersonal. I'd rather it was
all remote; like a hermit in a
cabin, or a kid, hiding in a
washing machine box.
-
Another overheard quote? Is
that what I heard you say you
wanted? Here's one: 'You're
still using your eyes to see the
world, instead of adopting the
proper skewed perspective of
an egomaniac.'
-
I guess my very best years were
those years of stretching out my
time; fleeing, as it were, my
slipshod being and hometown.
Avenel, NJ, for me, never had
represented anything; not even
as a parentheses within which
something 'better' was to have
been put. It was negative space,
a complete nullity. The only 
ways I could shake myself 
from it, were  -  first  -  taking
myself off to Blackwood and
my seminary years, where at 
the least I received an education
worth something better than
the paltry snapdragon-throwdown
of the Woodbridge Board of
Education, as presented like
dogbones to the students it made
moves to claim. Then, the real
liberation, for me, was a further
and smart immersion into the
dicier side of 1940's being; the
noir version of life as presented
by NYC from 1967 on. That's
where I expanded and  -  at the
least  -  hit my paydirt and my
stride. My make-up is to turn
most things into misery, so I
guess payback really is a bitch.
-
I felt like leaving the world often
enough. You know how, in cheesy
movies or bad TV scenes,  the
male and female criminals always
embrace and get weepy right before
their crime of doubtful outcome
is about to get started? They sense
it's to be a failure and probably do
them harm, but they go about it in
any case, doomed from the start.
Their weepy embraces seal the
bad deal for them. That's much
how I felt about life.
-
In the Bible, life in Paradise, oddly
enough, is 'defined by negation.'
That's a really strange concept, how
it's put in negatives like that: 'They
were both naked... and they were
not ashamed.' The negation  -  no
clothing/no shame  -  then makes
their 'realization' of that shame to
be somewhat advantageous by its
recognition. They made coverings
of fig leaf aprons, marking the birth
of creativity, resourcefulness, wit, 
craft, scientific invention, and
self-ornamentation. After all, from
where would they have learned
these things, these tasks, if not
from an initial self-discovery?
-
Things of this nature always
baffled me and showed me that
I really grasped little of human
understanding  -  about conditions,
being, fate, and a 'place' on Earth.
I knew so little, yet all around me
were people already claiming to
know it all. Cliches abounded: the
taxi-driver who was also a stand-in
philosopher; the local priest or
parson who acted with the bucolic
country-wisdom, somehow, within
all of the decrepit urban mix; the
wunderkind genius of the parable
streets, parlaying one sentence
read into a five page street sermon;
the babe with  a bleeding heart.
-
I read once where 'some things
become firmer and thus more
properly themselves, when
they are preserved, so that they
are improved only insofar as
they are preserved.' Within
Christian doctrine, that's called
'felix culpa' (happy fall), and is
used to bolster an idea that our
salvation in Christ is more 
fortunate and more blessed,
thus happier in both senses, 
than the continuation of
unfallen existence would have 
been' To me, that's always
been  -  as a working concept  -  
one step too far over the line,
and an almost twisted and
unacceptable constriction of
the human condition, made
to force everyone, in the same
sense as blackmail or coercion 
would, into the inane world
or religion and religious
politics.

14,370. TINKERS TO EVERS TO CHANCE

TINKERS TO EVERS 
TO CHANCE
To us it is given, and what
is not given is taken. She
carries nothing in her 
handbag but her soul?
-
Old baseball lore. The
stories of elders, about
the fights they saw  - at
ringside, those men with
their bloodied gait.
-
Sports is a metaphor for
sports? Is that all you can
say at this betting window?

14,369. HOW WE THINK WE CAN / ONLY?

HOW WE THINK 
WE CAN / ONLY? 
First impressions make me droop;
anyone can be anybody, first time
around. I once knew a guy who said
what he was, and who  -  but it was
mostly all made up and he turned
out an ass. Another fellow, well-met
but shallow, couldn't tell a truth if
it was under his butt and jabbing 
him. Those two guys are both dead
now, and that's the truth anyway.
-
Forrestal matrons and corduroy
kings? The story goes, about 
corduroy, that it was once only
a regal's fabric, to be worn only
by nobles in the King's court. By
that did it take its rightful name : 
'Cord du Roi.' So the story goes.
-
Maybe that too was made-up, to
fit some pattern of thought as a
trimmed fabric of recognition. It
was Lillian Hellman, a writer, who,
during the Blacklisting of the 1950's,
said 'I will NOT trim my fabric to
fit today's fashion!' I always thought
THAT was pretty noble. She got the
bum's rush, and was blacklisted.

Thursday, June 16, 2022

14,368. RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,278

RUDIMENTS, pt. 1,278
(I felt the same way)
I am witness these days to 
many of Nature's occurrences  -
the seasonal and the constant.
It's different here. It's raw and
it's unfiltered. The sounds go
on all night, all dark night. The
stars and the silence too. (How
come I feel I'm jinxing myself)?
Moon phases, planets, wildlife
and greenery. I have to admit,
too, that not too much of this
actually interests me. I consider
Nature to be on 'Automatic,' 
and the less Humanity has to
do with it, the better off Nature
is. That 'peaceable kingdom'
that Nature is supposed to be
runs pretty well on its own,
notwithstanding  -  or maybe
even in spite of  -  earthquakes,
volcanoes, tsunamis and floods.
It certainly doesn't need me, nor
any other dumb human, interfering.
The last thing I'd ever want to do
is kill, which is mostly a human's
wont  -  fishing, shooting, trapping,
and the rest. For what authentic
end-result I'll never understand,
no matter what rationalization
is given. 
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It's been 50 years this week - since
we're on the subject of 'Nature' - 
that a fierce storm named 'Hurricane
Agnes' swept through the Elmira NY,
area,where we were living. It swamped
the entire area  -  the Susquehanna
River, the Chemung River, Columbia
Crossroads, Towanda, Sayre, PA, and
many other places. The rivers were
raging for days, progressively in an
acceleration even after the storm had
passed  -  because the accumulating
of upriver waters just added more and
more flow and swirl and depth to the
already out-of-control rivers, long
past bursting their banks. The raging
Chemung River  -  right through the
center of town  -  swept away the
'Southside'. The poor people lived
on the Southside  -  it was lowlands
and basin areas where, with great
ease the newly-raging waters
threaded and gouged their ways to.
Homes, shacks, and buildings were
uplifted, off their foundations; toppled
or simply broken apart and splintered.
The factories and scrap-yards and the
rest, of that area, met the same fates
but survived and, by 5 years later, had
revived and been resuscitated. By any
chance of logic that had to be considered
good, for it at least gave back the options
of local jobs, and for the locals. For
myself, the place I worked was shut
down for near a year, and it was
quite some time before I got the call
for returning. Too unworldly to seek
some sort of unemployment or flood
and lost job assistance, I simply took
on other jobs in the interim  -  as
farm-assistant, milking, haying, 
running tractors, tending livestock,
and driving a school-bus route
through some of the craziest
rural roads you'd ever see. I
learned a lot, and money
stayed scarce.
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Hurricane Agnes was nature unhinged.
People had died, been swept away, or
had their accumulated heart attacks and
panics do them in. The great waters had
ripped open graves and the local flood
commemoration books and brochures,
(yes, they abounded, quickly enough, 
and for 1972, in black and white), each
managed to always have 2 or 3 photos
of swirling caskets or flood-opened 
graves. The flood was a true devastation.
That peaceable kingdom run amuck.
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Driving in that storm, the windshield
wipers on my 1967 Ford Cortina were
lifted right off the windshield (while in
motion) and torn from the car, just 
washed off. Unbelievably, I had to
drive some 30 miles without them  -
peering through a massive sheet of
rain/windshield through which not 
much of anything real could be seen.
Elmira, being closed up, was unreachable
that night, and we wound up staying
in a Red Cross shelter station that had
been pitched in a mucked-up mess of
a field somewhere between, Towanda,
Route 17, Waverly, and Elmira. Free
coffee, and cookies too! Kids on 
benches. mothers bewailing their own
fates and situations, and a number of
the usual, local, Chemung County sorts
of indigents staring listlessly. How did
we get here? What was all that? (And
you know what? I felt the same way).
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Eventually making it home (the next
morning's daylight answered the
question of what, if anything, had
happened to my parked-in-the-mud
amidst pouring rain and in the
middle of a grassy field, car. The
answer, most happily was
'nothing!'). Those next 30 miles,
through untold devastation and
muddied ruins, answered all our
questions about the storm. Driving
local roads became an eye-opener
wreckage, sadness, and caution  -
each roadway was clammed up with
something : downed trees or tree
limbs, twisted buildings intruding
on roads, backage up sewer-drains,
automobiles everywhere akimbo,
washed up on lawns, floated by waters
into building walls, embankments, or
other cars. The scenes were unearthly,
and with surly National Guardsmen,
police, and even Park Rangers onhand,
orders and direction were barked,
not spoken. It didn't even look
like the same place we'd known.
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We finally made it to Columbia
Crossroads. Our home still stood and
was undamaged, though the grasses 
and trees around it had taken a
beating, and mud and silt were
everywhere  -  roads and farmpaths
all showed the power of rain, wind,
and the storm itself; though we
were quite fortunate.