Saturday, February 2, 2019

11,513. RUDIMENTS, pt. 584

RUDIMENTS, pt. 584
('somehow crossing over')
About 1974, my Geology teacher
at Elmira College resigned and
moved his family and himself to
Austin, Texas. That was a big
move, back then  - Austin was
only then just starting its little
foray into becoming a 'hip' place,
in the same way as Toronto was
doing at about the same time.
For both places, it worked. They
each became geographic hot-spots
for their respective locations.
I do forget his name, I admit, 
but I know his house and 
remember his location real 
well. (I have some of my 
college transcripts here and 
probably could look up his
name, were I first able to easily
locate the strongbox. Somewhere
here). He had a small, light-blue
colored sideways bungalow on 
the hill-rise of the street that ran
into Woodlawn Cemetery, where
Mark Twain was buried. Which is
how I knew where he lived, having
seen him at 'home' on a few of our
numerous Woodlawn Cemetery 
visits. The floodwaters never
affected him, being high-up as
he was and way out of reach of
the waters. As was the college,
way down below, although at 
points there the waters did come 
close. I've dreamt of that college 
street (College Avenue, actually, 
it was called), probably 50 times 
in the years since, and they each 
vividly yet differently reconstruct 
for me all of what was going on, 
symbolically, as dreams do. In
'reflecting' reality, a dream sort
of gets it all across but changes 
the incidentals while bolstering 
the essence of whatever that
particular instance is. In this
case, it places, right adjacent to
the roadway, most every time, 
a glass-walled library in which 
were 50 or so heads, at long 
tables, doing library stuff  (such
a library at that location never
existed and was not there) while 
traffic went by and I crossed. 
The fact that I 'crossed' was 
always symbolic to me for I 
was nowhere else seen, and, each
time, I awoke with the realization
that the 'crossing' was the salient
point I was meant to take from the 
dream. Though I was 'there' and
in the mix, my presence always 
remained just outside of any
central action, and I remained 
a peripheral character to the scene.
To all of which was connected his
house, though it was a mile or two
off from the real site. That was yet
another 'crossing' in these dreams,
passing the imagined 'house' in order
to make the passage to the Twain 
gravesite without anyone looking
up or seeing me. Though I always
ended up feeling that they did, in
the dreams everyone stayed to their
places and pre-occupied. It was a
little weird, plus that fact that it
recurred. [Note to writer : Do not,
DON'T, try and relate dream or
dream imagery, sequence, or time
aspects in your writing. It always
will fail, is boring, and never
comes across well].
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One of his pet things was always
going on at length about geographic
phenomena, so of course the recent
Agnes storm and flood and all the
rest was like bonus field work in
real-time for him. He did go on. We
scaled walls and scraped mud, and
talked endlessly over what we found,
in the river mud, on over-turned
things, rocks, stones, boulders. We
scraped and paw the ground to
uncover silted objects that may 
have been exposed, only because 
of flood-currents and raging waters.
We found old and buried things and
talked about them, sediments and
layers, rocks with fossils. It was
maddening. At that point every class
with him started becoming like a
National Geographic Special. And
the other thing about him was, for
whatever reason, he was anti-coffee.
He had a coffee pot up front, always
going, and for free, and you could
have all you wanted, BUT it wasn't
coffee. His substitute  -  a constant  -  
was some crud called Postum, of
which too he sometimes went on
about as if he was their pitchman.
Instead of coffee beans and oil
and the caffeine, etc., that goes
with it, Postum was made from,
like oats or wheat or something.
It was pretty terrible and I really
disliked the stuff, even for free.
Bummer. I don't even know if
they still make that stuff, but,
take it from me, pass on it.
-
My point to a guy like him,
digger, mudslinger, hard-talker
about rocks and soil and grit, was
that if, in spite of all that, he
couldn't take it upon himself to
OD on some real coffee then he
was a wuss and good luck to
Austin, Texas for taking him in.
-
Everything in Elmira was soiled 
and rotten for a long time. The 
raging waters had cut a lot of
waterways and things, in its
fury, like shortcuts, and many 
of these, after they all got dried 
out and solidified, became paths.
It was pretty cool to sort of 
having given Nature free rein
to barge in and rearrange things
for you and show you better
efficiencies between places. It
was like some mystical cosmic
hand had come down and made
some adjustments and new
arrangements of the old ways
of old Man. Oftentimes too, the
really  large panes of storefront
glass that had broken just stayed
broken on these now-abandoned
and horrible hulks of old and 
soaked buildings. Some of them
stood for years. One or two, in
fact, got paths right through
them. It was like going through
an old railroad trestle or tunnel,
all smelly and damp, cooler than
the outside air, and darker too.
There was very little crime, no
real graffiti, everyone was for a
long time in shock. It took the
wheels of commerce a long time
to get rolling again, and a lot
just remained dead. Cities die
in different ways; this one was
spectacularly unique.
-
Also funny, and this goes for the
whole time  -  I really  don't
remember any cops in Elmira.
in itself, that's curious because
I'm usually very cop-conscious;
so perhaps I've just blocked it out.
But I remember nothing of the
police presence at road crossings
and intersections and blocked 
off bridges and collapsed things. 
There must have been, and for 
a long time, but I remember none.
I can vividly place the old City Hall, 
courthouse, chambers and all. (It
was a spectacular, Civil War vintage
castle-like complex). I (think) I
can recall the police headquarters,
but I'm not sure of that - I remember
the bail-places, and lawyers in a row,
so it must be correct to recollect.
In any case, right there is about 
where the flood waters stopped.
The old grocery-mart there, Mohawk
Market, got trounced and ruined 
on the one side of the street, but.
higher, other side beginning the
incline was spared : Arnot Art
Museum, the aforementioned
court house, etc. The huge, 
granite post office got wrecked, 
bus terminal, and some theaters, 
but above all that it stayed okay.
BUT, the poor people lived at
Southside, the other side of the
river, the lowlands, to which 
the three bridges had fallen,
with only one back as usable,
they were in deep trouble for
a long time. I fully expected
the plague to break out. Pretty
much, and for the longest time,
that area just stayed there as it
had died  -  rubble, destruction,
poor people, indigents new and 
old, the American LaFrance
fire truck plant, as well as the
Kennedy Valve factory (fire
hydrants and connectors)  -  each
ruined and needing to be started
over. People with no jobs lost
their jobs anyway. It was horrible.
People stayed lethargic, and the
only real thing I remember from
this, people-wise, was how some
just started sleeping around. I
knew a married girl on the nice,
north end of town, a few blocks
from ours, who just took up with
this strangely mysterious and
marginal guy from the Southside.
No matter that she was married.
The both of them, her and her
husband, went after  new mates, 
and stayed married nonetheless. 
It wasn't but a year or so later,
anyhow, that the southside guy
died. I'd read like where, in
desperate wartime, Paris and
liberation and WWII and all, it
was like that  -  all rules and
morals thrown aside, desperation
and panic step in, and human
relations become far more random,
with a lot of morals and values 
just getting thrown asunder. I
figured it to be a coping mechanism, 
and just let it be. They did get
back together again anyway.


11,512. PURE HAPPENSTANCE

PURE HAPPENSTANCE
Enmity in Brooklyn. Like or as.
Who would have thought? It
kept me busy but for the moment.
Leena was boiling the water on the 
stove -  for spaghetti again and that
old routine : Is it done yet? Al dente?
Try this; a little more time? And
then everyone would sit down to
eat; in a sort of communal, boarding
house way, things shared or mentioned.
Mixed up laundry, were those your
socks? I found one by the washer.
-
Living together can be living too close;
so many people in one small square.
Some get elated; some get morose.
Some say I'd rather be living elsewhere.

Friday, February 1, 2019

11,511. METAMORPHOSIS

METAMORPHOSIS
Right HeRe we HaNg them high :
Morticia comes in with the daughter
of her son, speaking bluntly and for
all to here. 'I want to know why this
was done!' Someone tried speaking
up but was stifled. Then another spoke
out : 'Well, we do this lady for the 
unborn and the dying, together, as a
unit. God's light is on the shelf,
right there, you can't see it?'
-
The chorus began singing : 'Oh leave
is alone and leave us alone. Leave us
alone if you will.'
-
In the other room, Father Francis
Xavier MacDonald Moriarity was
reciting the prayers for the dead, but
slowly, and while having coffee and 
cream. 'No sense to rush what has
already been done,' he spoke. 'Even
God took seven days for this world,
and I'm sure God knew ahead of time
what was about to take place.
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'Leave us alone, leave us alone.
leave us alone if you will.'

11,510. RUDIMENTS, pt. 583

RUDIMENTS, pt 583
(ghosts are part of our discourse)
That flood changed many things.
It blew in and blew out. I used
to chuckle, thinking of it as a
'curt flood,' the way it blew in
and briskly left; because there
used to be a St. Louis Cardinals' 
pitcher, in the later 1960's, named
Curt Flood. Pretty cool. Elmira
itself had a minor-league baseball
team, called the Elmira Pioneers.
We'd occasionally go out to see
a game here and there. I forget 
who, but there were one or two 
players who later made the big
time, in the majors; a manager
too, name forgotten.
-
 Anyway, that Agnes storm and 
flood battered Elmira nearly to 
death. Staggered it but good. Any
of the stores along Water Street  -
the main shops and business street  -
if they did come back, took a real
long time. I had a friend, an old
Jewish guy, Marvin, who ran a 
news and magazine, stationery 
and office supplies kind of dive  -  
great for writer's stuff. It was old 
and dark dingy; he was oftentimes
very cantankerous too. But we got
on well and often talked. One 
year I was gifted with a really
nice, fully leather, shoulder bag
satchel type thing, with English
schoolboy straps, etc. It's a beauty,
and I still have, and do occasionally
use it too. It's a great reminder of
old Rubin. The store was called
Rubin's Stationers. The flood
really wiped the old guy out, but
struggle back he did, and, last 
Winter when I was there, the 
only still-recognizable business
name I saw on that street was,
yep, 'Rubin's'. It's run now by
his son, in pretty much the same
sloppy way too  -  I would have
thought Staples or Office Depot,
or whatever, would long ago have
killed them. That's 45+ years.
-
It's fair to say water and paper
don't mix. It's also fair to say
that, when it's raging, water
really doesn't mix well with
anything, especially when the 
raging water is in places it
shouldn't be. One weird thing
I noticed, and it stayed with 
me, was how wood acts in
those situations. Back then
there was a writer named Eric 
Sloane, some years back, I don't 
exactly know. He wrote about 
a lot of old America stuff, and
and one of his books  -  I have
it here  -  was called 'Reverence
For Wood.' It was about just
what it said it was. He had this
really high opinion of WOOD 
and all the beautiful traces and
remnants of it that were quickly
fading as the 'old' America was
being killed off. He wrote like
a poet about wood; really 
gracious stuff. Anyway, in all
this flood stuff, you'd see sheds
and little buildings and things,
rolling down the river, even
tumbling about, in that way 
that large, floating objects 
get when they're tossed and 
propelled by fierce water. And,
eventually they get tossed out
and find a place to rest and
they just stay there. Or they
get snagged on something, 
and take further battering.
Mostly what I was intrigued by
was the way in which the
wood never gave up on itself
and seldom broke up. The
'rectangle' shape of, say, a
shed, may have turned into
a parallelogram instead, but
it still held together, the seams
never broke or shattered, and 
in that crazy, new shape they'd 
be seen floating along, rising 
and falling and tumbling as 
the water tossed them. Wood
held to its own integrity. The
entire, original, meaning of 
'plastic' originally meant 
something that could be 
altered, and which changed 
its shape. Only later and by 
use did we make a noun of 
it and just call things plastic. 
Wood, you see, was never 
plastic. The stupid flood 
taught me that, as dumb 
as it may seem; but it was 
a good reflection.
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At some point, just east, by
twenty miles or so, the Chemung
ran into its merge with the
Susquehanna  -  the two rivers
joining their waters and running 
down  into the much more regal
and legendary Susquehanna
on its run through Pennsylvania.
That river got all the glory; the
Chemung was definitely a lesser,
far-secondary, river. It didn't
really matter, as they both get

their allotted work done.
-
Both the river, and the reflections
on it that I made, in thinking, were
not just good, they were poetic too.
It brought me to another place.
I think there's a 'veiled' waterway
within each of us. Yes. Running
quietly, or perhaps raging. But
it's ours and ours alone, and we
cling, each, to our own shapes
through it all  -  until, for some
of us, something breaks it and
we shatter. Others can twist and
alter, but retain their intrinsic
form of self. That's poetry too. 
Can such poetry live in a mystery?
Can it reside, also mysteriously,
in each our souls? We may run
from fate and situation, but it
too is a river, flowing, and it
surrounds us and eventually
takes us over.
-
The whole of Elmira was 
changed by that flood. The
small city itself was and had
always been unique, because
of the river in its middle, and
also because of Mark Twain,
who married here, lived here,
and wrote a lot of stuff here at
Quarry Farm. I always made
the connection between him,
his writing, the Chemung, 
and the Mississippi  - that 
scene in Huck Finn where
Huck and Jim are rolling 
down the river, foundering,
and they come across this 
floating wreck. They board
it, and Jim finds a dead body,
and  -  because he realizes it's
Huck's own abusive 'Pappy'  -
the father, just called 'Pap'
in the story  -   he won't let 
Huck see it, and just calls it 
something else and changes
subjects. On the Chemung,
the very river running along
before my eyes, watching
things float by, I always felt
as if I was right there, with
them, tying up to some old
wreck of twisted-up wood.
-
A lot of the grand, old, wooden
riverside homes in Elmira got
destroyed in that flooding. And
with them went a lot of the 1890's
and 1920's industrial-remnant
evidences of a once much more
thriving town. The past just got
swept away. Like ghosts, each
escaping through some cosmic 
crack. I thought about all those
big old homes, in sorrow. Walter
Benjamin, a writer in the 1930's
era, wrote once that, "There used
to be no house, hardly a room,
in which someone had not died.'
(he was talking about the late
1800's). That was before the 
'funeral industry' had grown into
the all-devouring monster it is
today. No one dies at home
much anymore, and, for sure,
very few are 'funeraled' out
from home either. Maybe it's
all just ghosts. Ghosts are part
of our discourse here.

11,509. RUDIMENTS, pt. 582

RUDIMENTS, pt. 582
(hundred year storm)
When the floodwaters
came to Elmira, they
took most everything
with them. Raging waters,
all of a sudden, from the
usually pretty sedate
Chemung River. It ran
through the center of
town, the river did,
with levees and some
side ramps and all, but
never anything of
concern to people.
The river there just
sort of remained as a
fixture, something that
divided the town, you
knew where you were,
which bridge went over
at Elm, Maple, Walnut.
South-siders were needy.
North-siders felt rather
big-deal about themselves.
Right up to the college
(where I would later live,
two blocks  over). It lazily
made its way along, sliding
comfortably over things.
There were a few workable,
small islands in the middle.
Kids would row out, find
the seclusion, do what they
wanted, knowing they had
for 10 minutes of approach
time, by water  -  rowboat
or canoe  -  for any others
to be arriving. Nothing
ever got to the center of
the river that wasn't
brought there by humans.
One way to put it.
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Until the flood : all of a
sudden, in the receding
floodwaters, left behind,
these islands were covered
with strange debris  -  I
mean, you could find a
little bit of everything,
from car parts and bicycles
to the occasional gravestone
and couch. The roar of that
June 22, 1972 river-flood
lingered in its debris. Even
I admit it was pretty strange
-  the cemetery or two out
along the way, they also
got ripped up, and there
are photos, yes, of caskets
and grave markets floating
downstream. The southside,
being the lower land, got
pretty much submerged
for about 6 or 7 blocks in;
underwater 6 feet of water
and mud for, probably 10
days anyway. Much of the
higher northside was spared,
except for a few river-turn
areas and other low spots
and riverbank places. It
was a real mess, and
everything was coated
in a think slime of brown
mud, shiny. It eventually
dried as the rest of June
broke through, caked itself,
and cracked into these large
slabs, and fell off  -  if it
had nor already been
hosed down. Much of
it wasn't, as that entire
salvage and rescue and
rebuild process took a
long time  -  paperwork,
personnel, tractors and
loaders too. People were
 still just getting started
months later, and the rest
of that long Summer
consisted of the varied
noises of demolition,
salvage, and rebuilding.
The banks had themselves
to come back, as two of
the major ones, Chemung
Valley Savings Bank, and
Marine Midland Bank,
had both themselves gotten
slammed. Back then there
wasn't yet, as there is now,
a small national bank on
every corner  -  TD, Chase,
Bank of America, etc.
Things were different,
and I don't know how
this all got bankrolled,
but it did  -  Government
agents, loan and assistance
people, their files, etc.,
were everywhere.
-
The meteorology types, as is
their wont, already had this
named as Hurricane Agnes.
Then the usual bullshit
began, as doubters started
saying it wasn't technically
a hurricane, have come in from
north and west, not coastal,
and all the rest. So they began
calling it a 'Tropical Storm'
instead. Like who cared? It
was Hurricane Hell, as
far as I could see. It sure
got me to wondering about
those nomenclature types of
people  -  I figured they all had
to be anal-retentive if they had
to go worrying about what to
CALL a storm of such force.
What the heck was on their
minds, and what kept them
occupied? Try shoveling up
100 pounds of 'name' instead
of mud, in a shovelful, day
after day. See what you'll
call it then.
-
Though I was still living way
out in the boonies, but working
in Elmira at that time. I was
spared damage, but I did, of
course, lose my job. First
Street, just what it calls itself,
was close enough to the river
to get subsumed in the disaster.
If you know anything about
printing, or any machinery,
for that matter, you'll know
how deadly thick layers of
slimy mud can be on well-honed
parts and precision machinery.
Most everything in printing  -
from the presses to bindery
equipment, of course, the paper,
and all the rest, was ruined. It
took a long time for that salvage
and repair operation; near to a
year. My boss Floyd just said
I should find something to do
until if and when he called back
to say they were ready for another
go. I had any of ten other farm
jobs and stuff I could do  -  which
I did undertake  -  and actually
when the call did come I had
to think a bit before deciding if
I just didn't wish to stay put.
But I went back for a while,
though it never was quite the
same for me.
-
Like I said. I'd been spared  -
house and road and barn and all,
everything withstood. Maybe
a few trees down and a lot of
beat-up looking shrubbery, but
it all came back and the new
wet spots dried of, by August
anyway. It was touch and go
for a while, but Elmira itself was
like a bomb-scene. The Chemung
River had been set to raging, and
now it was running into Elmira
carrying half the water of the rest 
of New York State, from the Finger
Lakes, at least, on down on its back.
And that included whatever it picked 
up along the way : tires, cars, lumber,
sheds, and animals too. Pure havoc
had been set lose in the poor old
place, which was no running-
song before hand. Now it just
came off as a choir of drunks.
The place was a wreck, and
what came back after the flood,
though still recognizable, was
too new and fabricated and
plasticized to have any real,
good, old, and authentic feel.
That rigid and proud core
of the 'Civil War' sort of bolster
that had been there before, it
was all gone. They went and
one up'd the McDonald's by
now adding a Burger King.
-
The day of the really strong 
storm, we got holed up in some 
Red Cross station. The wind 
was howling, and we'd been out
eastways and coming back
in I took a bridge that went
over the river and that river
tunnel acted as a shaftway
for winds, probably 80mph.
Rattled the car to Hell and
lifted my wipers right off the
windscreen and tore them off.
So there I was in the midst
of God's own downpour, 
sideways winds, in a car, and 
no wipers and yet 60 miles 
from home. As it was anyway,
they'd closed the roadway a
number of miles up, and we 
were directed into some horrible
industrial siding in the middle
of what seemed nowhere, where
they had established a Red Cross
and emergency aid station. Cots
and food and coffee and the
rest. It was just a big, open 
and sloppy place, being used 
by maybe 100 of the most
miserable people you'd meet.
Kid-toys all around, kids all
scampering and being noisy,
sulky and worried parents
staring into their coffee. One 
or two small TV's were running
(back in those days, thankfully,
none of that had hit wall-size 
hi-def markings yet). A few
authority types were at a folding
table, talking names and info  -
clipboards and paperwork..
-
There wasn't much of anything
else to be done  -  checkerboards 
and playing cards. One guy was
already grumbling about his
livestock and how they were
endangered but these people had
forced him into here to evacuate;
another guy went on about 'Hundred
year storm, they say. Hundred years,
what do they know. It could happen
all over again next week!' One
lady was crying  - she looked like
something out of one of those old
Depression pictures you see, from
Walker Evans  -  long, sad, skinny
face, eye sockets hollow, thin and
measly housedress and big, untied
boots.


11,508. SUBURBAN BUS LINES

SUBURBAN BUS LINES
Don't think of me when you think 
of nice things' keep me with the bad, 
it's better than way and that way I
can say what I may. The fetters
of the caps and gowns which just
limit the scope keep me uneasy.
Here's what I mean: Listen to the
central bells by Palmer Square.
Some known Nassau pretension 
keeps them there, while toiled
minions purchase their gums and
butter. And then, right across
from where the New York bus 
arrives, three rushing men attempt
their line of language as they hit
upon the boarding-minute they're
allotted. Parsi? Or is that Hindi?
As they board the bus and
are driven away.